Friday, September 30, 2016

97L, tropical depression, tropical storm named Matthew, category 1 hurricane Matthew, Hurricane Matthew category 2, 3...

A growth process of a hurricane, its birth! NOW a cat. 4! A 4 is what took our home back in August 13th of 2004, a Friday, Charley was his name!
But so far only about a thousand miles from here, Florida i.e.
That means by next week, the end of next week it could be heading in that cone of uncertainty, with spaghetti plots plenty!
Right now no one knows for sure where it is heading, it's nature, no rhyme or reason, we must monitor the weather news all weekend and week long!

Moving on...

It's been a very quiet day.
Raining on and off most of the day, and again our stormy weather has proven to be unreliable.
No one knows when our used to be cooling afternoon showers will come, once they were like clockwork and came at nearly three P.M. daily, but now, nope, none, nadia, nah any longer! They come morning, noon or night, even in the middle of the night! I've said too much, I don't want to anger the rain/hurricane gods!

Somehow even with mid-eighties temperatures when it rains in Florida it feels like soup comfy food time.
So Hubby had some for lunch.
I had leftovers of mine from Bonefish Grill, so very good!
He was feeling under the weather, but not too, we still had a carton, yes a carton of lobster bisque left and that is what he had!

Shorty tonight, take care and allow me to be the very first to wish all of you a very happy good night and kindly count all of your blessings and share all of your overages with you know whom and we will too!

And next time please be here or be square, ya hear!

Thursday, September 29, 2016

Just got home!

Had an afternoon appointment, the last with the bariatric doc, I am set to go into surgery in about three weeks!
Two last docs to see and an additional out patient surgery with the vascular surgeon and then the hematologist/oncologist the week before.
I am high risk, but he is taking every precaution, so the bariatric doc said.
But... even so so many things could go wrong, and there is a list of nearly fifty!
He may fix my small hiatal hernia if it needs it while in there or take a liver biopsy if it calls for that too.
I do have a fatty liver that is caused by obesity itself and could turn into something more, thus if he feels I need the biopsy I said okay.
If I cant get up and out of bed he said I will end up in a facility that has physical therapy, so a good reason to try harder!

Anyway, we did eat out at the Bonefish Grill, and most of mine was brought home, Hubby finished his, all every bite!
We found that ordering appetizers in a fancy restaurant keeps the bill in a feasible cost effect range, he had corn crab chowder soup and shrimp stuffed with lobster, mine was shrimp too in a lemon sauce, and a wedge salad!
Too much really thus why it came home.
Ice water for the both of us.
The bill was $36 + tip, not bad for dinner, eh?

Any-who, tired now and very late to publish so I will wish you all a very happy good night and post this now!
  

Wednesday, September 28, 2016

LOSER! LOSER! LOSER! Just clearing the air.

That is what the title from last night was supposed to say, sore loser!
But once sent into cyberspace there are no backsies so "Sore Looser" left the paddock, ha, and ha, again, i.e., only fix is to be able to change my story's page title as an edit, which I did do!
I should know better, since it has happened before.
You see, I have this weird thing that happens on many occasions where my hand staccatos its keyboard taps! And before I know it I have too many of the same letters in a word or missing others when my fingers had not hit the keys hard enough.
Truly a strange phenomena that I rack up again to the MS, forgive?
Any-who, I hope that clears up my mistake.

All the Tuesday morning quarterbacks were amazing after the first debate.
The wins were anywhere from a tie to many popular views of no one won!
To me and most Hillary was the clear cut winner and I am happy that I wasn't alone with the same reasons I stated last night in my "Sore Looser", my viewers might have been confused or turned off by my mixed up title.
Almost sounds like a title for a hemorrhoids discussion! LOL!
TMI,TMI,TMI I hear Hubby in my head saying the trio of the acronym this time.

All the rhetoric is a constant and every media form has a different spin on what 84 million of us all saw. Amazing, reminds me when several people are called as witnesses to the same crime and all see something different!

Boy, won't we all be happy when the election is finally over!
Everyone has an opinion and most believe theirs is right, and folks that's what makes America great the right to believe in our hearts that!
Respect to feel how we do is the best part of living here, don't you agree.

On that upside, allow me to be the very first to wish all of you a very happy good night and ask you all to kindly count all of your blessings and share all of your overages with you know whom and we will too!

And next time please be here or be square, ya hear!

 

Tuesday, September 27, 2016

Sore loser!

A train wreck comes to mind.
Orange Frothy Haired Sniffy Guy proves he does live in his own world with yelling out one lie after another, by denying he said what he had.(Yes, fact-checkers, he sure did!)
Hillary on the other hand proved decorum reigns!
Being calm, knowing facts, handling herself as the only viable presidential candidate should while setting the bar extremely high.
Each nasty unsubstantiated criticism that spewed from her ungracious opponent's mouth she handled with grace and dignity and confident expertise, proving to be unscathed under verbal fire from the fiery oaf who claims to be an equal contender, yep in his own odd world he is, sure.
I am more than sure that to each of the eighty millions who viewed the undeniable proceedings of the first presidential debate of three can well see who is the logical choice to handle our American concerns for all of our country, Hillary undeniably shined as the proper choice.
Yes, proper, concise, well informed, took the time to know her/our stuff to answer all debatable questions with accurate informed answers.
Not to mention her experience speaking for itself.
Congrats to you, future President Hillary Clinton!
I am sticking my adult tongue out at that Orange Frothy Haired Sniffy Guy!  

Moving on...

Low carb soft tacos that are kosher?
No, it gets weirder...
How about if I told you that I put Heart Smart tomato sauce and low fat mozzarella with jalapeƱos, onions, and turkey breakfast sausage on it for completion! (Once heated in the oven I rolled it up!)
My legal pizza!
Hubby's illegal pizza, don't think there is such a thing; his was on French bread with sauce and mozzarella, no veggies.
Oh well.
Our dinners, hmmm, hmmm good!

On that note of separate, but equal living, allow me to be the very first to wish all of you a very happy good night and ask you all to kindly count all of your blessings and share all of your overages with you know whom and we will too!

And next time please be here or be square, ya hear!

Monday, September 26, 2016

Seems as if we here in Florida have a new normal!

Our storms come in later in the afternoon than years in the past.
More like early evening seems to be their designated time frame /MO arrival these days.
Darn, just when I get my writing of this blog underway time zone.
Speed is no more my forte these days I have become the turtle of my teased name of my youth.
Guess it was probably due to the sing song sound with my first name.
So I seem to rush for fear now so that the lightning or power outage fear of that it might mess with my completion and although I think that I am going rather fast, but in reality, I suppose not too.
Funny how things we did as children comes back to us in our older ages.
Naps, trying to remember, diapers, ha, silliness, not driving, needing help, not always asking, etc. you get the idea.

But back to this storming thingy, when we first moved to Florida in 1986, August 19th to be exact, the rain/storm action would come in around three P.M. give or take fifteen minutes during our rainy/hurricane season from June 1st to November 30th, and now sometimes it arrives after four or five O'clock, or even later??????
Why?
What's up with that?
We knew the rules were different here, but this?
Oh well, I suppose it is what it is.
I will learn to adapt, ha. (Indoors is safest)

Moving on...

Today was my six month check up with my pulmonologist and I mentioned what the others said about my asthma being emphysema and he says I have mild asthma!
No wheezing today, but I did mention at times later in the day I have trouble breathing and so he called in a prescription for an emergency breather, which Hubby picked up at the Publix RX.
While there he also collected more produce for me, pears, squash, and tomatoes, and...
Metamucil that was recommended as well on this new diet, which has an unpleasant side effect, look it up if you don't know what it is for; some things even to me are better left unsaid.(That was for Hubby who says TMI,TMI, occasionally about my writings, embarrassing. I guess to a lot of men who are squeamish about bodily functions, or not. Oops I said too much again!)

On that note of I better hush, allow me to be the very first to wish all of you a very happy good night and kindly ask you to count all your blessings and share all those overages with you know whom and we will too!

And next time please be here or be square, ya hear!

Sunday, September 25, 2016

Have any of you found out that ...

Some of our favorite sites are now asking us to purchase a subscription online?
One of my favorite decorating sites, and a few of the national papers are the ones that were all free, but now are asking for a fee.
Guess I will be less informed or depend on the kindness of strangers, ha?
Kidding, of course.. I still get national news on the good ole TV and PBS has how-to shows as well as spend forty bucks a year on four magazines that fit the bill, Southern Living, Coastal Living, Better Homes and Gardens and This Old House, if that's the way they want to play.
What else... let me think... oh yes I had been informed the other day that Netflix had gotten the eleventh season of Bones and guess what 22 episodes later, I am all done already
Went back to the twelfth season of Murder She Wrote, the last one!
Gosh what's next?
Maybe I will have to take some leaps of faith and go into unfamiliar territory.
The thought is slightly exciting, but don't worry not too.

Geez, how far I have fallen into obscurity!
Not that I was ever famous or anything close to that, but I was out there doing things!
Okay, I guess I had been on radio, TV and cable and ESPN, but still not famous.
I had worked in promotion with Grudge Match, MTV, NASCAR, and Harley Davidson.
Sort of ambiguous though.
Volunteered; had my writers group...
Wrote for the paper had commentary published, critiqued books, movies and restaurants.
World traveler.
Any-who, and now I am a bed writer.
Yes, bed writer, not to be confused with a bed wetter, yet, I sure hope not, but one never knows does one, ha...seeing the world from another window though these days, many, thankfully.

Although, not that nosey body of olden days, circa 1950-60s, just looking out and trying to figure out why, how, when, and if these people wonder that too, that is all.
So many walk past our home, all kinds, skinny, fat, those with dogs those without, some bicyclers, one with a motorized scooter, one on a scooter and others, many others.
Hubby calls a few on them stalkers kiddingly, since around, around they go, you see our street is a circle, ha!
I suppose perfect for any exercise plan.

One good thing has happened though, the new fall TV season has begun and now with our Netflix access and the TV we do have a wider variety of choice, and who can argue with that kind of entertainment decision making, hmm?
Not too many, just enough; as I always say we live with enough, and that is just right for us!

On that note of accepting what you have with appreciating all of it, allow me to be the very first to wish all of you a very happy good night and ask you all to kindly count all of your blessings and share all of your overages with you know whom and we will too!

And next time please be here or be square, ya hear!

Saturday, September 24, 2016

Another stormy evening!

For hours and hours we continued to hear the noisiest threatening thunder and lightning!
But not until now did the melodious sounds of rain arrive tapping upon our roof!
Yes, at least for three hours the angry gods of the sky spoke, but did not make good with the actual promise of moisture, although now it has most definitely!
Thunder still booms in the background of the orchestration of the drops touching the different surfaces enhancing more than usual tones, trying as if to create an individual tune, ten, no twenty fold.
No conductor is needed.
For the crash of the cymbals in the form of lightning is the attention getter and unifier.
Steadiness has transpired to make a heavy consistent drizzle in dulcimer tones.
The symphony is mellowing slowing, in this case hopefully ending... its foreboding frightening melodies that they shall eventually die.

Moving on...

Quiet day for most of it.
Pain has not been my friend.
Have been weaning myself down on the Gabapentin the generic of Neurontin, since the Humana pharmacist when asked felt it could be the cause for my blood not clotting right. I also Googled it and a few sites had mentioned people's personal experience with blood issues, even its medication side effects were severe in some cases with varying degrees of nastiness.
It was about time anyway.
I had upped it to 1200 mg. with approval after my fall last April, and until this past Wednesday, but now it is down to 900 mg. and this coming Wednesday I will go for another 300 mg. less. that leaves one 300 mg. pill in the morning and one at bedtime, where I had been since I had lowered it way back when from the original 1800 mg. when I first started years ago. The lower dose seems to be the safest.
Until surgery, I do know they use it for pain after, along with other meds, hopefully not the ones I'm allergic to.

Any-who, I hate that I have been somewhat bed ridden.
But I did make a few meals and achieve one load of dark wash today!
Moving still feels as if my skin is ripping off of my thighs, and the ice packs are not helping as well as before.
I have increased the Baclofen and the neuro's P.A. approved the 80mg. again just yesterday, if needed.
I took only 20 mg. more today.
My total will be sixty unless it gets excruciating, better Baclofen than Gabapentin!

On that note of I hope not, allow me to be the very first to wish all of you a very happy good night and ask you all to kindly count all of your blessings and share all of your overage's with you know whom and we will too!

 And next time please be here or be square, ya hear! 

Friday, September 23, 2016

Later than I like to be...

For starting my blog writing to day we drove all the way to Sarasota to see my neurologist's P.A. Daniel.
I was and still am scheduled to see Dr. Negroski next month but it's less than a week after surgery and I don't think I will be ready for that one hundred mile round trip!  
The reason I had to move it up was that I need for them to sign off for my surgery.
Any-who, it was a late afternoon appointment and from there we stopped at Sam's Club for white vinegar, extra virgin olive oil and coffee as well as gas!
Oddly enough this time they were not the cheapest, on our journey some were down to 2.2.9 a gallon and Sam's was 2.5.9!
Ya never know, but that was a first for us.

Hubby has been spoiling me with grocery food that no one believe is pretty great. Lobster tails were $6.99 a piece, and stuffed scallop shells with scallops was just a couple of bucks!
He ate his store bought salads and I ate my homemade Cole slaw with my apple cider vinegar and extra virgin olive oil and light mayo as well as Stevia for just the right sweetness and low carbs.
The Cole slaw was the shredded cabbage in the bag for convenience.
Great dinner at home!
But later than usual... so this is Tobi signing off once again...
I am pooped!
Good night all, TTYT!

Thursday, September 22, 2016

Mistakes!

Fortunately, not life and death, although, who knows it was a medication mistake!
There are bacteria that thrive in people that are resistant and my first antibiotic issued to me on the nineteenth of the month was not able to fight the good fight, killing the bad guys streaming through my body! ( They had my blood work that specified the types of bacteria that were ABNORMAL!)

Here's what happened and I don't know if I did not do what I did if things would have gotten changed to righted the mistake if noticed as quickly... I went on line and checked my bank charges, which I do nearly daily and there was a small charge from Humana RX who I had recently given access to for my quarterly co-pays that the highest is only forty-seven for a ninety day supply of my Anoro Ellipta, asthma medication that which I just received along with my Baclofen that is less than seven bucks for the same length of time pills. But I had not reordered any others and there was a small charge by Humana of $2.95.
I hope you all check for unfamiliar charges too, I am sure you do.
Any-who, I called Humana and asked the pharmacist and he said that it was a charge for Keflex another antibiotic that had been... get this called in on the same day the nineteenth by the same doctor!
The other had been called into our local Publix pharmacy for short term meds that we still use.
The pharmacist also felt it was strange since their orders take five to seven days for free shipping and a bit long for waiting for something like an antibiotic, which I get the free shipping for my regularly used medications, and seventeen bucks for overnight to me is too much!
To me its silly, especially since the local pharmacy can take care of short term meds the same day for free, no shipping, ha!

So the pharmacist and I put our heads together to figure out what happened, I even asked if it was possible that I needed both the Bactrim and the Keflex to knock it out of my system!
Well, I realized I had to go to the horses mouth and call my internist's office and ask what happened, they are usually great. I spoke with the receptionist and told her the problem and for her to have the nurse call me back to resolve this. Meanwhile my nearly processed mailed meds were almost on their way, but the pharmacist said he would see what he could do, if he didn't hear back from me he would send it and if he did he would try to stop it!

Two nurses called back separately explaining that I had to stop the Bactrim now, it doesn't work on my particular bacterium. I was surprised they didn't seem to understand the mail order business.
Meaning how long it takes to get things, youngins.
Anyway, my usual contact Janet then said she also called Humana to stop the other and so to approve the new prescription duplicated at Publix, also only two dollars and change, some are free there.
I was assured that I would receive my refund, but if the medication shipped I was to call to get a shipping label to send it back!
Hubby already picked up the Keflex, with a few other grocery items, including dinner, a rotisserie chicken, one stop shopping!

All was finally right with my tiny world, except when asked why it had happened no one said a word to tell me, only that Janet said she just found out today, hmmm?

Folks we all have to be diligent with our medications and bank accounts this is small proof how one affects the other. I have nasty bacteria in me for too long thus why I feel so bad... you see that original blood work is from would you believe August 22, yep a month ago!
Faxing aint what it used to be between offices. The bariatric nurse faxed it the day she received it, but too many medical offices are too busy to check and insist they did not get it!
Gee wiz people this is scary!

Tired, good night TTYL!

Wednesday, September 21, 2016

Practical

Cost to hire a new person to semi-run the country is locked in mostly give or take a few hundred thousand, true? Not a factor for either candidate, actually a pay-cut for both, they may even work for nothing with their other resources, who knows... The mayor of NYC did it, Bloomberg, he received a dollar for his service, also a billionaire.
Then why do these two people want the job so badly?
One seems to think it is another acquisition, a business deal, enjoying his inflammatory remarks,  a demigod mindset and the other seems to really have plans on many key concerns for all Americans, from domestic to international, she has the answers and good plans, the other, he, says I can't tell you until you hire me or raise me into the Emperor's position and add my immediate family of biological clones to enter the premises to join me in the kingdom of the Whitehouse, yep all white house.  
Now the two controversial candidates seem to be questionably having accusations thrown at them, his proven true, hers not, but his to many of us could possibly cause some future issues, embarrassment comes to mind, if heaven forbid elected.
Trust and hair-trigger stupidity while mouth's open behavior for him and he without government experience, and spewing bigotry on the one hand and with an AWOL third spouse that has disappeared into the woodwork due to her own missteps/misspeaks, and on the other hand a few decades of official government experiences for her with a supportive spouse with equal experiences, and an ability to be there as a sounding board, nearly a co-president!
Easy peasy no brainer AMERICA!

Vote Hillary!

Dump the Trump!

Tobi out...!

 

Tuesday, September 20, 2016

Dinner is done and...

... believe it or not I'm not missing those potatoes/rice/bread...much!
Veggies galore, and no not a Bond Girl, ha, but the variety is plentiful!
I suppose that's what anyone of the actors who played Bond, James Bond would have liked or thought, in character of course.

Any-who, allowed was homemade meatloaf without panko or other bread type fillers.
Hubby made it the quickie way with simple additions such as dried onion flakes and garlic, and an egg was okay, and Hunts ketchup on top that has none of that bad fructose in it, also instead of tomato sauce, no salt or pepper needed. Along with sides of Brussels sprouts, zucchini, and even homemade Cole slaw with flat club soda for my beverage.
Hubby's sides were mashed potatoes and mixed vegetables with coffee for his beverage.
Eating at home is more often these days.
The best thing is we will be saving money.
After all we just had the BIG additional expense of the new air/heat conditioning system.
But my diet for the next several months will not be conducive to eating out anyway.
Post surgery I will be on pureed everything, and baby food, not even toddler food, not allowed chunks, even at home all blended food will have to go through a strainer too, for quite some time or who knows when, whichever comes first, ha!


Moving on...

 I heard from the hematologist/oncologist's office today.
And they set me up with an appointment a week before my scheduled surgery next month.
Apparently, the doctor I am scheduled to see will be on vacation at the end of this month and won't be back until then.
Still worried, but I am sure if it was real serious I would be fitted in?

Moving on again...

The inspection for our brand new heat/air conditioner system was today, but it failed!
Apparently, the inspector could not find the UV cover on the wire outside or some such thing, Hubby's job to go outside with these people, I stay out of things I don't know enough about.
It was NOT a DIY it was a reputable installer with a national company, and when Hubby notified them they are sending someone over here to take care of it today, between 4-8 P.M.!
Whew!
Good reliable people.
Number one recommended here, Best Home Services.

On that note of things sure are happening...allow me to be the very first to wish all of you a very happy good night and ask you all to kindly count all your blessings and share all those overages with
you know whom and we will too!

And next time please be here or be square, ya hear!


 
 

Monday, September 19, 2016

Going CRAZEE!

Now I heard from the bariatric nurse again who stated that I do have an UTI and she emailed me the report and refaxed it to my internist, just the one page 6 to me!
And sure enough stuff is abnormal, yes written where they should be written NORMAL!
And so I am on another dosing of antibiotics.
I also was able to access through signing up for the portal access at the lab online for the total report eleven pages in all.
I seem to have a vitamin A toxicity, way above the norms 98 where the high norm is 82, as well as the clotting problem, which on my blood work shows too many high levels in the report from the norms. So now I can see where the necessity of seeing the hematologist/oncologist, and also it explains why I have been having my funky feelings.
But why all of a sudden such a major change?
That's the crazy part, since I do have blood work every six months due to my medications, and I had one just about the month before?

Moving on...

Then to make things worse I go to turn on the news and wouldn't you know it the Orange Frothy Haired Guy has consumed the airwaves, yep NBC,ABC, CBS and even my usually never choice FOX! He is speaking down in Ft. Myers and Good Grief the loony bin has left the door open and the inmates have escape, 15,000 of them and they all have seemed to converged on Ft. Myers, YIKES!

Any-who, Hubby is picking up my new prescription, which is the same anti-biotic I was on for my ear twice and some different dinner choices all one stop at Publix.
Would you believe I actually Googled low vitamin A meats?
Many of the fish I love is very high in it even my canned tuna, especially high, that I had had for lunch before I knew.
Low carbs are most all meats and many vegetables that are specific.
I am learning again things I thought I knew.
Meat is high in protein, which this diet is supposed to be, high protein with only 30 carbs a day.

Anyway, I am losing weight up and down mostly three pounds so far, and I have over a month left to lose the other eight.
Yep, now eleven pounds total.

On that note of trying, truly, allow me to be the very first to wish you all a very happy good night and ask you all to count all your blessings and share all those overages with you know whom and we will too!

And next time please be here or be square, ya hear!

Sunday, September 18, 2016

Doing what you love!

There is a theory that if you find something that makes you happy to do and get paid for it its like not working at all?
Although, when you retire you can find things you love to do and it doesn't matter either way if you get paid to do it?
Yes to both.
Just my unrequested opinion, as always.
As a bum, that is in Tobi-speak, myself for these last several years, doing only what you want to for no monetary gain is quite rewarding and self indulgent.
But that is only since we have a financial safety net of a state pension and social security to pay the bills.
Otherwise it would be downright oppressive!
And unfair to Hubby.
Before we do anything we pay our bills and thankfully we can.
My thoughts again go towards learning to live within ones means, which we finally did years ago after making quite a few missteps as many younger people do.
Keeping up with the Joneses is a syndrome I recall.
Many young people do that its other name is I wanna I wanna even if I can't pay for it disease!
Fortunately we never succumbed to that!
If there was a big item we either saved for it or found a monetary way to pay for it in manageable increments.
Why bother discussing this now, oh I don't know...I suppose it has to do with the word sacrifice and its true meaning. The act of giving up something to help someone else.
Hubby did that the twelve years he was a volunteer fireman and chief, he saved lives without thought.
I on the other hand also volunteered but did not save lives except my own making me feel useful and needed.
What answer is it when Frothy Orange Haired Guy said he worked?????????
Basically earned a lot of money by any means without concern for others!
 

Saturday, September 17, 2016

Vice is defined as being someone of immoral behavior acting on bad judgment, correct Governor Pence.

But it also means the person who is next in rank to the original office such as president or admiral etc.! PS the above titled definition is not only in "The Bible" as you put it, but in every dictionary!
Unless you categorize all your constituents as imbeciles I do believe most of us Americans do know the difference Governor Pence! 
You are running in that capacity and that is the name of the position for all this time, and defined as I mentioned above in my first sentence of this composition!

Moving on...

Please be assured that much that we read on the internet can be defined as questionable.
That is why we must research and verify.
I did post two op-ed pieces today from reputable news issuers, and even so I was questioned
on their legitimacy.
Although, having studied journalism as well as having written for a local paper that is affiliated with the New York Times as well as being a blogger now for eight plus years I as all those professionals have been known to make mistakes.
But I have never been sued for those mistakes and hope never to be. 

That said now on to more important things dinner!
Hubby drove out to pick up ours at Cracker Barrel where the choices are plentiful.
I chose the healthy rainbow trout broiled with lemon pepper and three sides, all veggies, carrots, broccoli, and a green salad, see I can eat out/in.
Hubby chose roast beef with his version of veggies, ha, mashed potatoes and extra gravy, carrots and macaroni and cheese, see what I mean?
And he is the skinny healthy one!
And no it is not inherited since his whole family is obese!
And yes at five ten and half and one hundred forty-three pounds he is a good BMI, but thin!
Any-who, just stating facts, his brother and sister are both over two hundred pounds and his Mom was under at one eighty, but only four foot ten!
Sorry, everyone assumes he's thin because of them.
My parents were not obese!

Just had to get that out there.

The feeling of righting misinformation.

Part of the pre-op testing for the bariatric sleeve surgery is a mandatory psych evaluation, mine came today via email pdf:
I received a wonderful report from the psychologist, but he got several key points wrong as if he wasn't really listening. For instance my length of time I had quit smoking he said seven years and I am very proud that it's been ten, and also things like my Mom's and Brother's ages of deaths off by a year for each.
My employment too, all wrong, working for Lord and Taylor's till I retired, I worked for them early on in life forty-four years ago, until my eighth month of pregnancy, as a credit manager, with Number One Son who is now forty-four years old.
I was working there during college, when engaged, when married, until my eighth month of my first pregnancy, four years total, and then we moved over one hundred miles away!
I did so many other things after that besides owning three businesses.
Mostly worked for pay in managerial positions, even for an international company as a district manager with five of their stores driving 3k a month in state, and the most fun one in promotion, but even then I was called an entertainment manager.
Although, I volunteered for years about forty while working a good solid thirty-two.
Been to Europe, eight countries and to forty states all before getting married.
He made it all so condensed and inaccurate my accomplishments that I nearly wrote back, started to but thought better of it, after all he said I was mentally good to go for the surgery!
While we chatted he did tell me about his father's heart surgery and other personal info that I felt if possible he spoke more to me during that fifty minutes; that he had checked his watch to make sure we attained.
I do recall being more tolerant of him speaking therefor listening to him, on my dime, well Medicare's and AARPs, and for an instant a thought came to mind that perhaps I was the therapist instead of him.
For me it was a unique experience behaving so quietly, listening to this complete stranger tell me his personal information of his father.
I answered yes to the question he did asked if I had worked for Lord and Taylor, nothing more, he assumed that when I said I retired in 2008 that it was from there, it was not. I left there in April of 1972!
It was from pretty much everything else that I retired from in 2008, volunteering, writers group etc., due to being two years into my diagnosis of my MS, I had had it for years but it was confirmed in 2006, and my body was not doing well from then on.

I hope this suffices my desire to straighten this counselor out!(Self talk inserted here)
I do know that it helps me.
And no, I do not think I mentioned that I write a blog for over eight years, anyway I am pretty sure even if I had he wouldn't have heard me, ha!

On this note of why not feel the need to write what we think, sometimes no one gets hurt as here tonight...so with that insight allow me to be the very first to wish all of you a very happy good night and ask you all to kindly count all of your blessings and share all of your overages with you know whom and we will too!

And next time please be here or be square, ya hear!

Friday, September 16, 2016

Stand up, sit down, kneel ... born here!

Yes! We are all Americans!
Questions, conversations, cyclical; same or similar topics over and over again.
I am older but not real old yet, one can only hope to get there, any-who as long as I can remember people wanted their voices heard, quietly protesting has been the most, make that the loudest and most polite form of doing that, stand-ins, sit-ins, write-ins, petitioning, and most recently kneel-ins, arms locked-ins.
I say whatever works for your concerns to peaceful be changed, go for it!   

FINALLY! Orange Frothy Haired Guy admits that our two term president voted into office by the majority of the Americans his people is one of them/ wait us! Hip, Hip, Hooray!
Crazy till the end nearly, bet he thought hey two months till our American folks vote might as well tell them the truth I was an ass on this issue too!

Nasty storm here and so I am cutting this short!
Good night TTYL!

Thursday, September 15, 2016

There's a cure?

NO!
Let's get one thing very straight I am not having bariatric surgery to help me cure Multiple sclerosis.
My inability to walk or stand is not due to the weight.
It is due to now having the progressive form of an incurable disease, Secondary Progressive from Relapsing Remitting.
I wish that the surgery to help me lose weight would magically change it all, but all it's going to do is allow me to live longer by taking the weight off my inner organs!
That alone should be a good enough reason to do it and for me it is.

You see, in the old days I was a bicycler, swimmer, speed walker, dancer and gym rat.
None of those are possible to do anymore, and there is no reason to believe that the extreme loss of weight will allow for me to do any of them ever again.
Since I have ataxia from the MS, as well as heat is a big issue causing spasms, and muscular syncope also is attributed to the MS. I had gotten skin cancer and that has caused me to become sun shy as well.
So many reasons that I am unable to exercise, since I had tried over and over again and again!
My diet is healthy and has always been.
My weight gain was attributed to quitting smoking ten years ago and IV steroids, as well as other medications and not being able to exercise anymore.
And yes, it is true that many of those same meds will be taken due to need although the IV steroids have been determined to be harmful to me causing possible necrosis so I will avoid them at all costs!
The biggest weight gain though was from the quitting smoking, fifty pounds immediately!
The remainder I know was the other items mentioned.

Any-who, what brought this on one might ask.
Nah, but I am supposing a few have been, even if you had I still would not be able to hear you, ha!
So I had a conversation earlier today that made me think that still not too many people understand Multiple sclerosis when mistakenly some think that I believe that doing this major dangerous to me surgery would be to help me miraculously recover from this slight annoyance called Multiple sclerosis, well no! NO, a thousand times NO!
MS is a neurological disease that has no known cure to date.
Ignorance is not bliss folks and saying oh maybe you will be able to do this or this or this after the surgery is just uninformed!
It's like telling someone that just lost a loved one that you know just how they feel!
No you don't ! 
There is no cure and it is inevitably progressive, and no two people with it have the same symptoms or affects.
It seems to manifest itself as a different illness in different people, so puleese do not compare any of us!
For more information please go to the many sites available as I have to help myself.
Multiple sclerosis association of America, National Society of Multiple sclerosis and the Multiple sclerosis Foundation are just a few.
Charlatans are out there that screw with sick people and others saying they have a cure, but as of this moment in time there is NOT!

That is all...

Soapbox derby anyone?
Kidding but I do get fired up when people assume, as well we all should!

On this note of feeling a relief of stating my case, allow me to be the very first to wish all of you a very happy good night and ask you all to kindly count all your blessings and share all your overages with you know whom and we will too!

And next time please be here or be square, ya hear!

PS I will be going to the Cancer Center in the next couple of weeks once the doctor reviews my test results. Yep, you heard that right, and that is why I was scared that is how they answer the phone at the doctor's office I was to call, but the hematologist I will be seeing is also an oncologist.
I was originally going to the other doctor who is only a hematologist but they changed me to this one.
Damn waiting is the worst! But could indicate nothing seriously is wrong, I hope.

Wednesday, September 14, 2016

Open to interpretation...

 This morning I received a call from the bariatric doctor's nurse with the two problems on my tests.
She, Mary, told me that I will be scheduled to see a hematologist since my blood work showed that I was slightly having clotting issues.
Actually, what she did is give me the name and phone number of the dr's office to call and that she was faxing over the blood work to there.
The first was the main number in Sarasota, I had been told they were in Venice, anyway, that number led me to another number of their new patient coordinator who was kind enough to tell me that I could go to the more local office in Port Charlotte, and when the address was given it was less than two miles from our home.
So they should be calling tomorrow, if not I am to call them.
I was also told that I had an urinary infection that my internist Dr. Nord was also faxed my test results and that she would want to see me and come in for that problem.
Usually they call when they get the info, but when I hadn't heard by four thirty I called there, and according to the info they read it said white blood cells were found but no bacteria, therefor no necessity for an anti-biotic.
Okay, one less worry?

Meanwhile I happened to mention about a possible pressure sore so my chronic care nurse is coming over to check me within the hour.

Oddly enough I seem to be losing weight finally, so far about two pounds.
That protein powder and no potatoes or bread helps, meat as much as I desire same for cheese, certain veggies too and berries, all kinds, but I am eating strawberries and blueberries.

That is all for tonight so on this note of who knows what is what, allow me to be the very first to wish all of you a very happy good night and ask you all to kindly count all your blessings and share your overages and we will too!

And next time please be here or be square, ya hear!

 

Tuesday, September 13, 2016

Round the bend we go...

Nope!
Provocative title, hmm?
What is meant by that?
No not loopy yet, and if you guessed crazy, yes that is right; which the title would indicate and it is also considered a grammatical example of a morphemes, not the drug morphine but the grammatical, here a better explanation: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Morpheme
Any-who, another area of knowledge that I was lacking in, but to my surprise had been using often.
Thus my desire to share this finding, but somehow I bet many of you out there already knew.
Brilliant people for some strange reason read this, and I have no idea why.
Except that they might teach English and I am a fine example of what not to do? LOL!
Hopefully kidding, really!

Moving on...
The day has been rather quiet.
In the sense that I have been recuperating.
My headache of last night seemed to morph, change into a strange intro to extreme weakness, and spasms, occurring for no known reasons.
Earlier today I had another one of those horrid ones, spasms that is that manifests themselves under the left breastbone, making one think it is a heart attack!
Although, I opted for more Baclofen, my anti-spasmodic medication, that I weaned myself down to forty mg. again with the doctor option of doubling that, so periodically I take an additional 20mg, and rarely another 20mg on top of that too.
Fortunately, it seemed to tame the horrible sensations, but has left me feeling as weak as a, Geez I could not come up with a proper analogy, oh my!
Almost said baby, but it is rare for even an infant to be weak unless ill.
Okay than as weak as a sickly child, horrid, but befitting!
Guess an adult being unwell works too.
Anyway, unpleasant conversation, soliloquy, since this is one sided.
So I suppose it is best to close for tonight.

On that note of what the heck, allow me to be the very first to wish all of you a very happy good night and ask you all to kindly count all your blessings and share all your overages and we will too!

And next time please be here or be square, ya hear!

PS I am discounting a heart problem due to two reasons, I am still here and my appetite is too!

Monday, September 12, 2016

Headache, P.A. visit, thunderstorms violent

Consequently this will be brief.
My head is pounding terribly.
Could be rain related, sinus, or mildewed sugar free butterscotch!
Yep and what makes it worse Hubby read the carbs on it after we both consumed the ones we had kept in the glove compartment for long drives...and they were 15 grams, half of my 30 grams allowed in a day!
Queasy tummy too caused by the headache!
Feel bad, PA did take my vitals including listening to my lungs again the chest X-ray testing came back saying emphysema, but I insisted my pulmonologist said asthma!
I have been feeling poorly in the chest region like a respiratory infection, cannot have pneumonia since I had the mega inoculation for it!
Any-who, tonight I am feeling yucky so good night TTYT!     

Sunday, September 11, 2016

Bonus post briefing on my take of Hillary

Someone please get that woman a pneumonia shot pronto!
As far as her take on the Orange Frothy Haired Guys supporters percentage wise I do believe it is correct.
Here's why he supposedly has according to the polls approximately 43% or there about, give or take a couple of points daily, of the supporters for his candidacy and of those Hillary stated half of his were misogynistic, homophobic, racist, Islam phobic etc. deplorable people, not verbatim but close, right?
In that case that would mean only about 21.5% of the entire US population and in reality that is more than just and a reasonable statement it appears to be mostly correct.
When we break it down to population:
330 million in the US give or take that would make about 68  million that would be that 21.5% of the population she referred to.
Consider all the red states 20, and let's not forget the purple undecided states 13, and Maine that is half and half, plausible now, hmm?
Information attained for 2016 by way of Wikipedia by Googling: Red States.
I'm just saying...!        

Nazis and all extremist I despise

I do not hate Germans or Muslims.
My husband is a non-Jew German and I love him; I am a Jew.
That is why I do know how to differentiate, I believe, why not all groups of people are bad.
I suppose, oddly by definition, that makes me prejudice too.
Hate is a powerful feeling, not to be not understood its reasoning for all it does have rhyming to whomever believes/reasons why they hate.
People should be respectful of all peoples and not judge, although as in all murderers I believe that unjustly to kill is wrong.
I was once a person who did not believe in capital punishment.
Albeit with the ability to prove without a shadow of a doubt in a court of law I still generate some difficulty in absolute murder of an accused.
And that is only since DNA proofs have changed the guilty verdicts in so many cases.
After all who are we mere mortals who think that we can judge others?
My confusion is only as a side walk supervisor of our legal system since I am neither a law maker or initiator of the laws that rule our governments local or federal.
But as a voter I do feel somewhat of an ability to change legislative law, as rather grandiose feeling in this day and age, since even our own president has seemed to have lost that powerful capability.

Moving on...
So on this auspicious memorandum of why this day is never ever to be forgotten 9/11; I totally agree with a caveat to all who hate without selective reasoning, remember too that it was an extremist organization that perpetrated this horrendous act on our nation, not unlike the Nazis in World War Two, so not all of the people should be vilified, just a thought.
A lesson we have been tossing around every which way we can over these last fifteen years.
I believe our mark for hatred can be narrowed to JUST the Extremists' factions as we have learned.
And so throwing all the babies out with the bath water so to speak is unjust and just plain WRONG, and I hope that we can all see that!
Now as us remember your friends, families and all yours and others loved ones who had perished unjustly on this day fifteen years ago.
We had known people at all three locations where this nightmare of horror occurred.

Saturday, September 10, 2016

138 of us again with 3 hours of no power!

September in Florida, south west Florida has historically not been this hot!
Yes, even for Florida this is very, very hot!
Thermometers are reading low nineties but the heat indexes are reading well over one hundred!

No storm, but still a power outage meaning no working air-conditioner!
I foolishly told Hubby to go ahead on his errands.

He arrived back within two hours and twenty minutes and even was able to get a verbal and visual about the why this could happen again in so short a time from the last, but in a different location.
The first one turned out to be a transformer hit by lightning during a storm just around the corner on the pole, okay, logical.

This one made no sense at first since it was sunny and clear and the other issue had been repaired.
What Hubby saw on his way home and we were in telephone communication at this point as an FPL(Florida Power and Light) truck over by the convenience store about a half mile from here.
He pulled over to speak with its occupant that was just sitting there.

Hubby got out and politely asked about the problem and when would it be fixed.
The fellow who had a small shaggy dog on his lap, explained that he had been called into action from home and the little one wanted to come along.

Anyway, he told Hubby that he was waiting for equipment to arrive and when it did that it should take only another forty-five minutes; there was loose wire hanging from a pole.

That was at 4:04 P.M., the power had gone out around a quarter to two.
Just when I was telling Hubby I should have listened to him when he wanted to start the generator before he left the power went back on.
By now the house was up to the mid eighties and I was up to around one oh one, yep even with my ice packs!

Not good for me.
You see, I had started gyrating with more spasms before the power went out due to my band exercises.
Not musical, vinyl elastic, in blue this time.

Any-who, not good, arms flailing and weak while trying to just play dominoes and spider solitaire on my phone, while lying in bed with ice packs strategically placed on my heated body!

I was a bit not happy that the house wasn't cooling down fast enough.
Hubby to me seemed to not get it and I became annoyed with him since he had been in our air-conditioned car and stores while I suffered in this ungodly heat!
Sure I can be a righteous bitch when extremely uncomfortable.( And no he did not throw that in my face.)

My fault since he did want to put the generator on, and I said no. ( Nor this)
My reasoning was since it is outside and gasoline driven, both, if the electric had gone on... well they are manual not automatic and I could not do whatever had to be done, also gas is more costly these days then when we originally bought them back in 2004 and 2005.

Last time I do that!
Yep, a learning curve for me still...

On this note of boy have I got a lot to learn, allow me to be the very first to wish all of you a very happy good night, and ask you all to kindly count all your blessings and share all your overages and we will too!

And next time please be here or be square, ya hear!
 

Friday, September 9, 2016

Protein chocoate powder skim milk drink with banana breakfast...

... other halve of the salmon burger from last night with cucumber fat free Greek yogurt salad for lunch, dinner was baked boneless skinless chicken thighs with more zucchini baked and spinach salad with tomato, radish, celery and scallions dressed with a homemade extra virgin olive oil and balsamic vinaigrette. Snacks consisted of another protein drink this one being a mocha with ice to make a slushy, made by adding coffee to the chocolate powder and a splash of skim milk and more salads during the day with some slices of cheddar on and off, also allowed.

Beverages are black coffee, eventually caffeine free with stevia, and flattened club soda.
Caffeine and carbonation will be no nos after surgery and so I was told to begin now, happy we don't have to cold turkey drinking wine, since we discontinued that over a year and a half ago and that is also not allowed.
We discontinued our wine consumption due to my realization of the additional calories that I did/do not need!

Day one of this new diet and so far not bad.
Ha,ha,ha,ha...!
Forty-one days to go, six weeks right, forty-two days total?

Oh, I almost forgot our new digital scale that we ordered while out  the other day was not in stock in Bed Bath and Beyond, but they were able to take our 20% off while there to make it a special order with free delivery to our home, and by the last email report said that it should be here by tomorrow!

Perhaps, a few pounds might be lost by then?
Wouldn't that be wonderful?
Nah, too much pressure to think that way.
I will have to be honest with my reactions, but try hard not to get discouraged if it takes time.
(Self talk)
Encouragement, realistic, different, whenever I have set my mind to do something I have been known to succeed.
I think I can, I think I can, I think I can... the little engine that could! Silly me! But whatever works, true?
Who knows where this journey will take me, but I must think positive thoughts.

On this note of logic, allow me to be the very first to wish you all a very happy good night and ask you all to kindly count all your blessings and share all the overages with you know whom, and we will too!

And next time please be here or be square, ya hear!

Thursday, September 8, 2016

Wirlwind day with much accomplished!

The dermatologist appointment went well.
My ear is once again healing nicely.
Even though, still sore; I must train myself not to sleep on it, and with my breathing equipment that should be fine.
If you recall the only time I stop breathing is when I sleep on my back.
After there we went to Walgreen's for protein powder for my drinks, vitamins, generic Pepcid, as well as lipstick that was a twofer, my flu shot, Hubby's too soon he has four more months.
I had been going to my doctor's office these last few years for the shot, but Walgreens has been running that get one give one campaign these last few years so I felt better about getting it there.
Medicare fully covers it there too.
And finally to Publix, our grocery store to buy my low carb foods.
Most all of what I like anyway, fish, lean meat and certain fresh produce is more available than others and I can eat as much as I desire.
I was happy to have guidelines, all were things I enjoy eating anyway such as zucchini, cucumbers, radishes, chives, tomatoes, avocadoes, and such.
So I broiled some zucchini and radishes and made a fresh salsa out of the avocado, onion, tomato with lime juice and sea salt to taste.
Fish were on sale, tilapia, shrimp and salmon burgers that we had for dinner with the above mentioned items.
My idea of eating well.
Low carb corn tacos were bought in place of bread, and on the list that I was given pages of before surgery meals and after ones.
I hope it works, since I have been eating pretty much all of this stuff anyway.

My attitude as you may have noticed turns on a dime.
Some might think that could mean I am unstable, to me I think and I maintain that I give myself attitude adjustments that work with realizations of all options.

On that note of more hope, allow me to be the very first to wish all of you a very happy good night and ask you all to count all your blessings and share all those overages with you know whom, and we will too!

And next time please be here or be square, ya hear!
 

Wednesday, September 7, 2016

High protein low carb diet!

Seems as if I have been here before.
Years ago that is how I ate.
Now I am supposed to lose ten pounds in six weeks without the ability to exercise!
I don't know...
Scared.
Nerves are definitely coming into play with this whole thing.

Was feeling better this morning, but somehow the stress and anticipation of the whole bariatric surgery project is more complicated than I believed it would be.
I hate to give up with all that I have been through with having
passed everything else with flying colors so far.
The other issue is the vascular surgery the week before to prevent clots while recuperating.
When I Googled the type of surgery there seems to be a whole bunch of class action lawsuits having to do with that umbrella thingy or similar ones.

I did a lunch out with Hubby right after, he seems to not understand that I am now on this diet.
We both ordered the pot roast, and I had him take most of my breadstick and potatoes and gravy.
He also thinks with me going on these very strict diets, now and after will not allow him to eat his usual, chips and cookies etc.
He was not happy!
Which added to the stress.
So many things came out today about what has to be done before during and after he seemed not happy to hear most of it, more stress.
That consequently makes me hungry, so I eat.
Vicious cycle.
And my body has become exhausted.
To me the surgery is a life and death decision that is all I can do to stop this obesity from killing me. Ironically, I quit smoking ten years ago to live longer and then became obese!

Oh well...
Just wish we could skip to this time next year?
Will I be here thinner, or here at all?

So tired now... Good night.
 

Tuesday, September 6, 2016

Power outage, new installation, count down to new dietary restrictions

Last night we had rather a stormy evening, rain accumulations in the several inches range. Some areas flooded, but not us we instead as a result of lightning hitting a transformer in our neighborhood our power along with 137 other homes was out for hours!
Exciting and frustrating, although not as hot as a daytime power outage. Our daytime temps are still in the nineties with heat indexes in the over one hundred range. So the later these things happen the slightly less dreadful they are to contend with, although the indoor house temp did rise into the eighties!
No need for the generators, the two that we have, since I used my ice packs and did not complain, so Hubby never asked, besides I fell asleep.
Better that way.
I had, had my breathing apparatus on when the failure occurred.
I took it off when the house went silent.
By the time it came back on a few hours later I apparently was still asleep.

Today was the new air install.
A Carrier, 14 seer, two ton for our modest home.
I have been making mental notes on what has been replaced in the last couple of years, our car, washer & dryer, hot water heater, living room furniture and TV. Only things left are kitchen appliances, and the pool pump!
We wait until they die natural deaths of course!
After everything has been done for them and we have no others choices.

This week I will be seeing the nutritionist who will be placing me on a pre-op special diet.

Busier, and happy to say feeling better than I had been!

On that note of better to have something, anything (going on that is, not sicky stuff), allow me to be the very first to wish you all a very happy good night, and ask you all to share all of your blessings and we will too!

And next time please be here or be square, ya hear!

Monday, September 5, 2016

One after another after another

Sick on sick on sick!
Not possible?
Sure is.
Not even my little pinkies have been spared!
Pain, nauseas, dizzy!
No fun!
Complaining is so freeing!
Geez, could I be feeling better?...
Could I be feeling better?
OMG, even I can't hear me!
Wait...nah, wait, nah, oh well.
Scene.

Sunday, September 4, 2016

Alright

Finding out that things you worry about for no good reasons turn out fine, makes one feel foolish...just a thought.

Any-who, we all have days as adults where we allow ourselves to ponder our past choices that we made in life. Don't get me wrong not regrets, but if we had turned right instead of left or vice versa.
Just another thought.

Does fate happen to us or do we make our own...
 pretend religion does not intervene. I said that only for my friends who believe that way, but for argument's sake take it out of the equation.
Another consideration.

Are we truly alone in the universe or are other life forms out there?

Why is the sky blue?

Who am I really; or you?

On these poignant/silly questions I pray that you are safe, dry, comfortable, happy, and with the ones you love!

The weather will change and so must we!
Go with the flow, etc. etc. etc.

Bad day again so being nonsensical is why this is so odd, forgive...TTYT!



Saturday, September 3, 2016

Here we go again...

Today, we had a rude awakening.
Well, not really rude more like an inevitable somewhat unexpected need to take care of something that we sort of hoped we had a bit more time to do.
A necessary part of the Florida lifestyle, a necessity.
Air-conditioning, central, but of course!
Ours has had so many band aid fixes placed on it over the years so much so that we were able to tweak years more well past it's life expectancy, twenty-two years in all. In air-conditioning  years that is nearly ten years longer than most, and past its expiration date!

Heat, sun and salt takes a brutal too early demise on them all in the south.

So after Hubby spent one scary thunder and lightning night repairing the fan's spin performance and even purchased another.The housing was so brittle ...so a pro was called in and temporarily fixed...until...Tuesday when a shiny next generation more efficient one will take its place,Ta Da!

YAY!

The end...for now.

Friday, September 2, 2016

The storm has passed

We were very lucky with just heavy downpours, still a few on and off, but no flooding here. Many low lying areas did have some. Beaches did have some erosion. The major part of the storm , a cat 1 hit in Cedar Key, over a hundred and fifty miles north from here. A lovely dog friendly vacation place that we enjoy. Not too bad though and it will be fine in no time once again.
We are a resilient state!
We always come back no matter what nature bestows on us!

Moving on...

My first night was not easy, make that four plus hours with my breathing apparatus.
Four is your minimum.
It was not as easy as I thought, there must be a learning curve.
Mine covers my nose and mouth.
Hubby told the doctor I'm a mouth breather! I do have a rather small nose, but it pinched it and left a mark like a bruise! The respiration therapist fitted it at their facility.
And I thought I was good to go.
Hubby tried tweaking it this morning, hopefully his adjustments will work for tonight. Last night I did not sleep well and was up again for a few hours, defeating the gizmos reasoning. Well, I do have access for help, and if we don't get the kinks worked out after this holiday weekend, I'll give them a call.
Maybe there's a sleep apnea apparatus book for dummy's?
Oh I don't know.

On that note of perhaps, allow me to be the very first to wish you all a very happy good night, and ask you all to kindly count all your blessings and we will too!

And next time please be here or be square, ya hear!

PS This is supposed to help with those wee hours headaches, caused possibly by the sleep apnea! Hope so!




Thursday, September 1, 2016

All hooked up

This afternoon I had been fitted for my CPAP, continuous positive airway pressure. The contraption that kicks in when/if I stop breathing. Not very cute, but affective, it's a rental that Medicare 80/20 and my supplemental pays for completely.
Relief financially and physically.

Moving on...

Sadness is deep and I am unable to give details.
Yes, some things are too personal.
But as much as I try to live longer frustration with one personal family issue robs me of more years, and for moments I ask, why bother?

But for Hubby and Number One and for my own self I realize I must go on, still heartbreaking.
It is hard, but I do know I must and one day I hope and pray that I will get through to that missing person from our lives, I must before I die...!

On that note of saying too much, allow me to be the very first to wish you all a very happy good night, and please share all those blessings, and we will too!

And next time please be here or be square, ya hear!


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