Did you ever do something and then wonder why you did?

I hear you!
Sure, who hasn’t?
But even though you knew it was wrong and stupid and you probably were just bored; you did it anyway?
Yesterday, was an old friend’s, at one time considered a best friend, sister sort of, and it was her sixty-first birthday. We had been friends for forty-one years and then we had a falling out in June of 2004 and haven’t spoken to each other in nearly seven years!
So crazy gal here thought what the heck I would look her up on Facebook and so I sent her a message, since I deleted her email address years ago and we all change those fairly often, not us though, we had our old one for twelve years but I know some do since they constantly send me their new ones to put in my address books.

Any-who, I sent a very generic message, and all I said was, “Happy sixty-first birthday,” and she responded within an eleven hour window with, “Thank you!”
And so I wrote back in a respectable time limit of another seventeen hours with, “You are welcome.” Not any more or less than I would do for any of my Facebook friends that I wish birthday greetings to daily and when they thank me too I always counter with you are welcome and suggest that I hope they had a great day, only polite, right?
But with this ex-friend of mine I didn’t think that would be right due to the fact that I am not so sure that I want to renew our friendship, huh?
I know, I know, its silly and crazy then why did I do that send a birthday greeting?
You all know that I have many brain lesions due to the Multiple Sclerosis and maybe just maybe I don’t have any self control over things that I do or say anymore, huh?
That would explain a lot of my last several months and years to me.
Or is it just an excuse? Who really knows…?
Or just maybe with all that I am going through I do need a confidant as I used to have, Hubby is great but not the same as a girlfriend to commiserate with you, huh?
That sisterhood I mentioned a few nights ago we had had that. No matter what time of day or night we used to be able to talk about anything.
Is it so crazy then, yep and so I am, I truly don’t believe anyone would argue that point.

But sometimes even crazies do logical things.
A study was done that as we get older we need more friends, not less.
You see my problem has been that I have been too judgmental and weeded out people I felt made me unhappy or inferior to what I needed at a specific time, but all of them came through with well meaning criticisms. But my over the top sensitivity was unable to deal, ha I hear you all say! She, the one with all those opinions about things cannot take anyone else telling her what SHE should do!
Yes, that is more than likely one of the many reasons I cut off my relationships with so many. But when you don’t smoke and others do you try not to be around them to prevent you from starting again, same with people who drink a wee bit too much and to me lying is a very good reason to quit a friendship too!
You know the saying birds of a feather and all…

Moving on…

I am still exercising daily and I am determined to become healthy, but it is a rough fight with my limitations and a very slow process too, since I have never ever weighed this much in my entire life, even when expecting our sons!
But I must admit that when we went out shopping on Monday I was sort of happily surprised that my nighty size has dropped to an entire size lower! TA DA!
I guess I am getting smaller or the sizes are getting bigger?
Nah, I will think positively; I am getting smaller and YEAH!
I must remember my metabolism is sloth-like with all my meds that work against this process and just the fact that I did nearly nothing at all for over two years!
And this project of mine just started in December, not too shabby I reiterate with the size difference, huh?

On that note of positivity, because that is what I truly want out of life is happiness with a hopeful attitude!
So let me be the first to wish you all a very happy good night and to all kindly count those blessings and share those overages and we will too!

And next time please be here or be square, ya hear?