Thursday, February 18, 2016

Hesitation

The act of verbal, bodily movement or written pausing, hesitation.
Who would think that life would give me another pause to deal with at this time, now as of today, ha!
But it seems that it has and this one is a bit concerning.
You want to know why that is, hmm?
Because I have never ever have been accused of stopping before to think before engaging my verbal communication or even in my written words while touching the keyboard right here, I have never been accused of being that much of a thinker, so why now, must I think?
My behaviors in life since childhood had always been done without much forethought at all, maybe, at the very longest, two seconds, perhaps?
Thus all those mistakes and regrets, but you would think I would have paused, hesitated sooner, hmm?
NO!
This is an odd medical event and it is not thinking so much as being lost in thought, got that?
That has got to be it, nothing else fits.
Pausing is an interesting aspect of communicative behaviors and can possibly be mistaken for true consideration of another's comment or a decision to say something of profound value.
Is it possible that my generic OTC stomach GERD medication is causing this?
This week's flavor of the FDA questioning of medication once approved to go from prescription to OTC is now being accused from some vague testing in Europe/Germany that these products may very well cause kidney damage and dementia!
I have been on this so-called safe med for at least two years non-stop now, as per gastroenterologist,  for my once medicated severe GERD that I had been on the former prescription version!
Oops!
This is not my first go round with a drug albeit prescribed being recalled or found flawed.
So far no harm, lasting, no foul, to stop and find another replacement... but where?
Train of consciousness is how I roll with talk and writing; thus this verbose prose.
Sometimes I get lucky and make some sense, and tonight I hope that I have for your sakes.
Sorrowfully this is all subterfuge for my truer thoughts that I have been requested to not say aloud at this time.
Hard for me, but another is involved, so out of respect...I must hush my thoughts...and not speak out loud, so shush.
Maybe you will be privy, someday soon, or maybe not.
On that mysterious note of loyalty, allow me to be the very first to wish you all a very happy healthy safe good night and ask you all to kindly count all your blessings and share all of your overages with you know whom and we will too!

And next time please be here or be square, ya hear!



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