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My mind has been very dark over these last few minutes.
I invited our across the canal neighbors to our home for dinner before they left to go back up north, and they first accepted and then said that they could not due to too much to do before they leave. But they leave every year… Most people would say that’s fine and leave it at that… but oh no not me!

The man has not been waving back to my Hubby from across the canal lately and of course I thought perhaps that there was more to this unfriendly behavior, and so I called them.

I was extremely put off by those two issues and my feelings are sensitive to all of that and I always want to know why people do what they do.

Yes, in reality it isn’t any of my business, why someone changes their mind, but I have no idea if it is truly me or their personal problems.

You see, I suppose I am not that much different than Sheldon in the CBS TV show the Big Bang Theory, don’t you just love it?
Any-who, at times my over analytical mind wants reasoning’s for things, not blatant obscurity of how they think what they think I should know, huh?

Take the non-waving, the man on the other side of the canal wears sunglasses while he sits in his chair, and his female partner said that he was probably asleep and didn’t notice Hubby’s waves; i.e. logical and acceptable.
And she also mentioned that he likes him, meaning Hubby, and so he would never be rude.

More info to compute, does that mean that he doesn’t like me, perhaps?
It is possible, I have been known to rub some men the wrong way (Get your minds out of the gutter), especially the ones who believe that women should be seen and not heard, since I do definitely enjoy being heard. Really, who doesn’t?
But I did not ask that particular question so now I will never know that answer.

And when I first called I told the woman my planned menu of broiled salmon, asparagus and sweet potatoes and she only heard the vegetables and later in my call back said that they just thought it was a vegetarian meal, and now I learned that her partner doesn’t like salmon or lamb!
When asked previously, I thought she said they eat everything.
Listening is an art form that I am still working on.
But we all need accurate information to know how to handle these situations.
I almost was willing to change the menu it is not written in stone, but at this point to what avail and what would that prove that they turned us down because of what we were serving?
Crazy, how my mind works sometimes, but in truth I know many were thinking the same thing, why?

But not many have the nerve or desire to ask.
If this is impolite than not telling the real reason why you cannot or won’t do something is considered to be so-called polite? I am so confused.
As I have said so many times before that I am appalled at the way lying has become acceptable in almost all cultures!
Under the guise of being polite; which seems so counter logical?
Again, is it just me?
Again I am in fear it may be.

Where did I leave my polite behavior, or is that it was never told for me to do.
My parents I suppose were not unlike me loose in their teachings of such things and did give me the expressed feeling that my opinion was valuable and that counted for something…is that so wrong?

My brother in-law in my opinion was way too strict with his son he would yell at the dinner table and make him say thank you and clean his plate and I wanted to cry and say stop!
Children are living beings with feelings and ideas and needs to be hugged not screamed at… so when we had ours, although I did yell on occasion I tried to be more like my parents in trusting them to make good decisions and in most cultures I would have been considered quite lenient, not unlike my parents who I always knew loved me very much no matter what and that ain’t bad! Or is it?

Could I have been wrong all these years thinking that what we know or even want to know is downright intrusive?

I’ll never forget the woman in the waiting room to go in for my physical therapy when I tried to make conversation she accused me of interrogating her and that I was too nosey. I am not sure what I asked her since it was quite a few years ago, but if I recall it was probably why she was there and what type of problem she had to have PT for too?
After all, it was a medical waiting room!
She may very well be one of the many reasons that I mainly speak in soliloquy form when I used to try the ask a question wait for an answer talk back and ask another question and go back forth in that vein for a so-called small talking chat method, most think that you are too full of yourself with my current method, but I am at a loss, I need to find a happy medium, but I am not out in the world that much anymore…and my cognitive ability is compromised by the Multiple Sclerosis!
I did try that weather thingy too, but many don’t really care that much now to discuss that and everyone is tuned into the instant weather channels, since it changes way too often anyway, did you notice that too? LOL!

I try hard not to be such a softy with my feelings. Gosh I have been harder on others than many have been on me!
And so in closing all I want to say, when does anyone really know when to cry, smile or punt…oops, that sounds familiar, I said that just the other night…Geez, I should read me more!

On that roller coaster ride of weirdness and emotional betrayal, and silliness and boy, it’s getting crowded in here, Sybil, Vicki and Kate watch out! KIDDING folks!
For people who have no idea what that was about, Sybil is a book based on a true story of a woman with an illness of multiple personalities, and Vicki is a TV character with a few also who was in the recently defunct show, One Life to Live, and Kate is another character on General Hospital who is at the mercy of the writers who are no longer on that defunct previously mentioned show and now write on her show, the above mentioned GH, so they showed her character reading the others book about this illness called DID, that she most recently has shown to all of us that she has, got all that?
Come on folks it is a joke…about me, that is, but don’t we all have many people in us in reality, our business persona, personal relationship persona, parental persona, etc… and all those different hats that we figuratively wear in our lives, sure we all do.


Well, folks that is more than enough of that, hmm, or should that be eh?
On that Gosh, what was that?
Let’s go with the familiar… allow me to be the first to wish you all a very happy good night and ask you to kindly count all your blessings and share those overages and we will too!
And next time be here or be square, ya hear?
SURE HOPE SO!