Time...

Wasting time is not something that I am fond of doing and even being a retired bum, I still try to accomplish useful things during my day and when others waste it, it really bugs me!
Incompetence is the lack of skill, lack of ability, ineffectiveness, ineptitude, stupidity, uselessness are all the culprits in my book when so-called paid medical workers shirk their duties in my opinion!
My one medical office sent a fax on Tuesday to another office and as of today when I called they did not fax it back with my TSH results. I spoke to their medical records department and the woman there told me she did not have the authorization to take care of it, huh?
But her more able co-worker would be in this afternoon and would take care of it!
Well, a little while ago I tried calling there and no one was answering their phones, and I did try a few times thinking I had gotten the wrong number the first, and after to listen better to their selections and then I even went to there site online to check their business hours and yes, they would be open tonight until six and this was only about five fifteen!
Now is that the way to run any business, especially a medical one?
No medical personnel run the phone lines and so the possibility of them being needed in an emergency does not wash here either.
Well, while trying hard to get through to them my cell phone rang with the right office calling to tell me that they finally received my results and they were still slightly high but that I should continue on the same medication for another four to six months and see if it adjusts and then have more blood work!
Now the other office that notoriously has sent out two notices to me about not normal tests previously, dropped the ball on this one that they received on March 9th!

Thankfully, I did hear back and a course of action has been determined that was not that big a deal in the long run, but why mistreat people who are already under a lot of stress; I ask you?
Is it me, could I be wrong?
To me it seems so heartless.

Any-who, finally I do know that I still have an issue with my thyroid and this newest addition to my laundry list of ailments and that all I can do now is wait on a hopeful good result, once again…
But I look at myself in the mirror only rarely, since I am so truly not looking like anyone I recognize.
To me it devastates me only more.
Oh sure I know it is me, I still haven’t been diagnosed with dementia or Alzheimer’s, but the face that stares back is so not me.

Days come and go and doing things that are positive is what I want to wrap my head around, but what and how?
I did apply to become a volunteer at a local clinic that is looking for people, with my lack of physical abilities I felt that one day a week for the four hours they needed someone that I could answer phones at the very least?
But I still have not heard back from them and that was nearly a month ago.
Am I so terrible that no one even wants me for a volunteer anymore?
I used to be so loved for what I did, but that is not why I did it, and now I can’t do what I once did, but I can do something’s, really I can!
No, I do not like to be considered a Pitiful Pearl or any other negative personality or Debbie Downer, but I am definitely not functioning at full capacity and I do know that it creates depression in me, naturally.

Trying to fight that feeling is a daily chore like everything else I am fighting.
Writing here makes me feel that I have some abilities to communicate and I still have something inside of me worth sharing.
You all know that this forum has been here for me for the last few years and sure I have meltdowns with my emotional side coming out when stressed to my limits like so many of us have.
But the best thing is, with me, it is fleeting and I do always seem to bounce back, hmm?
So when I expound on what is ticking me off and share with all of you it is cathartic with allowing others, perhaps to reflect on their own feelings too?
I sure hope so.

On this not funny at all night of reflection of why I react how I do to in my way of thinking of being mistreated by others allow me to be the first to wish you all a very happy good night and ask you to kindly count all your blessings and share all those overages and we will too!

And next time please be here or be square, ya hear?