Thoughtful meditation

When you do get a day of reflection, what do you do?

Well, for me, besides watching mindless entertainment on the TV I did something today that I do not do as often as I should ... I took a nap!

Yes, I am at that other end of the age spectrum where napping is not considered goldbricking, especially if you are retired, not still working, it then is considered beneficial healthwise.

So I finally did something right!

Well, it's not like I haven't before...I used to work it into my day fairly regularly and at that time I did not know that it was a good thing.

Adults who nap seemed so lazy to me.

Oops did I say that out loud?

Yeah, I did.

Oh, so I did mention reflecting, this is it, thinking about what I have done today, gotcha!

Hubby was more productive physically than me that is, he trimmed our palm trees in the front and back of our home.

The weather was in his favor, still not too hot nor too cool anymore, high seventies to low eighties with much lower humidity.

I suppose since he is in much better health than me that has more to do with any of it!

What is that? His ability to accomplish. I set goals daily too, when things need to be done, but I am all caught up!

My energy levels diminished with different daily physical abilities waxing and waning issues, and consequently also having an effect on whether or not I am depressed for the day.

Then also how I feel that I am treated in the outside world, or even my immediate in home world.

Some days are better than others emotionally.

Not uncommon with chronic illness people, and I have many, illnesses that is.

I know that I am not alone with that, but no one has exactly the same medical problems, even with people having the same illnesses.

So like everything else in life no one can really understand how you or I am feeling at any specific time, truly.

But I bet you get that.

Medications can cause depression as well as the illnesses themselves, so it does seem futile to throw more medication after the the "problem", to me.

I kid daily about the reason I do not let depression get the best of me due to me having a short attention span, and to feel so very low you must also be able to harp on that sadness for very long periods of time, and I don't. My answer for me to snap out of it is that I seem to be able to easily distract myself with entertainment such as Netflix or network TV or conversation, or reading or arts and crafts or cooking, so many other things that I find to do.

But of course my sadness is due to problems that are not fixable, many aren't till they find a cure, and so adjusting my attitude is how I handle these too difficult topics. 

What a Debbie Downer am I... oh well!

HA!

Somethings that I do not write about on here make me sad.

Lets put it this way...I am a lot of work.

But I am still capable of cooking, doing laundry and light housework, and paying all our bills!

Even though my bad days outnumber my good days, so it seems at times.

I do take care of many things.

I still can take care of all of my own personal needs too.

People see me in the wheelchair and on occasion they assume otherwise.

Some even talk to Hubby and not me, like when I had a manual one that Hubby had pushed me in; hurt my feelings. They seem to think I am not able to communicate!

Not the right track... let me get back on the right one!

The world actions depress us all and make us angry without knowing what we can do?

Uh oh, same negative track, but if we cannot feel others pain than what are we?

Truly, our hearts break with all these mass murders for no reasons!

THERE IS NEVER EVER a reason for this!

Yes, horror is an emotion we must feel free to express.

And if these things do not have an effect on us then we must find out what is wrong with us!

I still cannot understand people who refuse to watch the news though.

Pain in life helps us appreciate joy.

Nah, pain is just pain and we DO NOT NEED IT, and JOY SHOULD STAND ALONE, AS OUR HAPPY PLACE!

We must find a way to make the world a better place for all...!

Now on that better sweeter note allow me to be the very first wish all of you a happier good night and ask you all to kindly share all your blessings and we will too!

And next time please be here or be square, ya hear!