MIND

We all make excuses at times for how we behave.

Now don’t lie; I am more than sure that you have too…at least once, maybe?

Legitimate reasoning is only something people with major medical issues can genuinely use for their excuse on why they literally did that; or can we all?

Lack of self control is no reason to behave badly; or is it?

Sure we have all said that a child with a behavior problem can be legitimately labeled, Autistic or ADD or ADHD etc, and than we all agree that is a legitimate excuse for being not always in the best of spirits, correct?

Of course it is, therapists do try to help these children and success proves that they can be helped in many cases, but not all…

Than why is it not alright or as easily understandable for someone with Fibro fog, caused by Fibromyalgia, or a similar foggy brain syndrome with Multiple Sclerosis and more importantly, cognitive disorders that is even more provable by MRI lesions and other neurological substantial diagnosis to be understood that what we may do or say is NOT always what we meant, and why is this is not always understood is baffling to me?

You see, I am included in that, since I have both MS and Fibro, and by some standards of how these things progress I should be a blathering idiot by now, perhaps to some I already am, bud, dump bum, since I have had both for way too long!

Truly I do believe that mine though has manifested itself in, at times, as very bad, angry behavior and appears as my demeanor. Interestingly, that mean is within the word demeanor, hmm?

In a negative way to act that no one should be proud of, but it appears to be triggered by frustration plus exhaustion and there is no way to alleviate it while it goes on, since it is a brain issue, a short circuit with the striped myelin on the nerves in the brain, a coating, that protects usually, but this is like striped electrical wires, ya know?

Not my fault! TRULY!

And as any school age child knows is that the brain has many of these nerve fibers within its dome-don, called the brain, actually throughout the central nervous system; true?

So when several are not functioning, due to their striptease, so to speak… you have no idea what may transcend; oh yes we do with the problem, it’s a medical legit issue, but many don’t get it, which can create havoc with relationships…including family and even friends not on Facebook (too much time to think with what to say to most of them, but sadly not for me) and if it affects you, as mine has, with basically a nasty personality change; not good!

People don’t get it… which frustrates us all that much more and so I have basically no friendships left in the real world and except for our one son that is all the family I speak with regularly as well as Hubby of course!

I do try not to blame the diseases, which really have caused this.

The problem is that no one wants to hear that…probably why...

So I live in a vicious cycle that contains Hubby along with Number One Son and me only for communication face to face or via phone.

The idea of this topic came to me while once again I misunderstood another persons meaning of what they said to me, yep cognitive problems too, and so when people tell you something and it aggravates you with MS, unless you totally get the gist of what they are trying to express it can be difficult…and this is can be scary…AND SO MY EXCUSE IS LEGIT AND ALL ANY OF US WANT IS TO BE UNDERSTOOD AND MAYBE FORGIVEN A WEE BIT?

On that note of really, allow me to be the very first to wish all of you a very happy good night and ask you to kindly count all your blessings and share those overages with you know who and we will too!

And next time please be here or be square, ya hear!