Nearly a normal beginning to my morning although a wee bit more so since I awoke earlier than I have been...

I check my email every morning after I turn this thing on, how else?
I have two addresses that I use, one more than the other.
My older one is where I got a slightly at first unpleasant surprise.
I found the so-called ‘cute’ Easter e-card that I received rather insulting and not that funny, but then again I suppose I may have sent, on occasion some of a similar caliber.

Any-who, the surprise was due to whom it was from… my X-best friend of forty-one years that for I don’t know why I did it but I wished her a happy birthday last month on the Ides of March. And during all our friendship years she would warn me to beware of that day!
I honestly for years I must have had my Norm Crosby ears on because I thought she was saying be aware of the Ides of March, as if I should know about it for our English class? LOL! Yep that was a joke friends.
So I never took it as a warning of not trusting her; until our falling out in June of 2004.
That is one topic that I will not delve into too specifically to protect all involved, but it was her taking the side of one of my family members and not understanding what was actually going on that caused the stalemate and I suppose years may have somewhat of a healing affect, sometimes a little bit but not entirely.
I still have mixed emotions about what transpired after, I wrote back to her and gave her too much catching up info, including a copy and paste of what I wrote as info for my Facebook page and access to this blog.
Oh well, that’s me an open book.
We had many good years as friends and confidants, but somehow things changed and sadly I truly feel they may never ever be the same again, so why bother reuniting?
To the good of conversation and the net we were able to catch up on both sides of the northern and southern exposures of our sunset of our lives.
Life is too short to not try a little to mend some fences and wouldn’t that be nice, since in recent years I have burned down so many of mine, but she doesn’t know that yet.

For me to change my life for the last quarter down, to make it mean something it would be a wonderful challenge to try to get back that joy I once had of having so many people I could pick up the phone to count on for being there. Not to be physically there at this time and distance that would be too frivolous of me to expect, but emotionally; that’s all any gal needs and isn’t that what friends are, sounding boards for those major decisions in life and they will not be critical or judgmental just there to listen and be there for you as your cheering squad?

She had mentioned visiting possibly, but I did not say one way or another to do it, since these days we are not the host or hostess we used to be when more able and not as much fun either consequently. And so I rather have people just drop by for a hello than too much pomp and circumstance that drives us all crazy with preparations. Is that so wrong?

Moving on…
On that additional glimpse into my heart and my dark soul of yore let me be the first to wish you all a very happy good night and to ask you kindly to please count those blessings and share those overages and we will too!

And next time please be here or be square, ya hear!