Saturday, December 12, 2015

When life throws tacks in your way you should punt

Huh?
Sure we all have rough days.
And I am one who knows as well as most with any chronic ailment, mine is Multiple Sclerosis.
Some days thinking about crawling under the covers and going back to bed may be all that you have to do to help yourself deal with another crappy feel-bad day.
But alas some folks do not have that luxury of choice to so eloquently avoid life in any minute increments due to responsibilities to others.
Oh sure you say, what about delegating.
Yes, in complicated lives where work and family are still daily in the picture than that could be the answer.
Although, neither of those have anything to do with my own situation, since I am retired with grown adult sons and it's just Hubby and me here along with Gus our rescue Havanese mix dog.
Hubby takes him out into our fenced in yard several times a day, I don't.  
Since my tiny bought with squamous cell carcinoma, skin cancer on my left cheek last June I hardly go out unless in the car to go to another indoor location.
Even when on vacation most all sightseeing was done from the car.
Easier with my compromised walking ability and not all historic places having to adhere to the ADA (Americans with Disabilities Act of 1992) rules with access.  
Don't get me wrong indoors with my walker I am still fairly able on and off during any day.
Pacing myself has an effect on how well I do, but some days no matter what I do nothing seems to help.

I do get depressed especially when TV shows kill off MS people. It is a rare occasion that over the years that I have seen any show deal with MS, mostly breast cancer, and they survive and AIDS and they survive, but for some reason they did a short storyline with actress Dee Wallace being the long lost sister of Luke and Bobby Spencer on ABC's General Hospital, a soap opera, and she has MS and is found in an assisted living facility and dies shortly after.   
Scorpion, a new night time TV show on Monday nights on CBS about a bunch of genius kids solving intricate life and death mass criminal situations. The top brilliant fellow's sister also is in the show with MS, which got my attention since he was determined to cure her, and after all he is this incredibly smart young man with a 197 IQ higher than Einstein's and all. Geez foolishly I thought they would announce a cure on the show, silly me, she died two weeks ago in the storyline.
Depressing, and yes I do know I could die from this but I could die from so many other things too.
My one shinning star is my one cousin who was diagnosed, also with MS, at the age of twenty-seven forty years ago and is still with us.I was the fourth in our family our aunt and uncle being the other two, my Mom's in-laws, so not blood relatives but my cousin is, and they were her Dad's in-laws too, her Dad was my Mom's brother, got that.
This insidious disease hits everyone differently, and in some ways for that I am thankfull.
Although, my neuro doctor's last visit was my reality check of me getting worse.
Denial would be how I want to handle this, so day after day I self talk to myself that I am fine, yep I am fine.
Darn symptoms belie my own self brainwashing.
Some times breathing is difficult, my voice gets hoarse many days a week, but I am fine.
My numb legs sometimes don't want to hold me, but I am fine.     
My arms cannot hold the position to write here without drooping, and I am lying down in bed, but I am fine.
Enough about me, remember I told you I was having a bad day, but I am fine.

On this note of being fine is all in one's mind, allow me to be the very first to wish all of you a very happy good night and ask you all to kindly count all your blessings and share all your overages with you know whom and we will too!

And next time please be here or be square, ya hear!

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