Thursday, October 20, 2011

Thinking, thinking, thinking...

Aw, Geez why bother?

I don’t use my pre-thoughts anymore to determine what will come out my mouth into the atmosphere of the world to be heard by the few… OK, the one or two, Hubby or Skipper, ha! Well, sometimes the many may hear me but not so that I would know it I suppose…huh?

Have any of you out there felt that thinking carefully about what you wanted to express was worthy of caution in the way you said it?
Sure you did… but not me!
Not now, not ever!
And yes, there have been many a time that I regretted after, that is what I had said, and you all know once it’s out there; there is no taking any of it back!

That alone should have told me not to do it…
I never mentioned that we did go to the Oktoberfest at the Cultural Center over a week ago, but that was the night my stomach failed me and Hubby told you I was unable to write, which was sadly true.

But there was more to it…In reality it was just as well I did not enjoy this year’s version the band was all right I suppose but the food was just fair compared to my in-laws who all were from Germany. That alone should tell you I know a bit about German cuisine, yep I married a man who’s Mom is German Catholic married to a German Lutheran and me a Jew who thought she was an Austrian, but turns out from two of my cousins doing our genealogy that we have German ties too as well as Polish, Russian just about any eastern European group that came over in the late 1800’s and early 1900’s!
But to be honest we, Hubby and I, are both Americans.
Both born here, although, Hubby’s Mom was born in Germany she’s been here since the age of five and now she is ninety!
So that is why when Hubby said something I didn’t like, it was really awful in the midst of the festivities last Wednesday I said something that was way off kilter even for me…what I said is… “You sound just like a Nazi!”
Now, I was upset, yep with what I said and it was more than just a stage whisper it was a rather loud comment of my disappointment.
Perhaps, I should put it into context, I do believe Hubby said that this buffet that we paid upfront for the great deal of saving six dollars for the two luncheon meals was not really a buffet and the platter with a smidge of this and that that we had for a total of twelve dollars a piece including red cabbage soup, not good soup, and beverage, coffee and iced tea and that we were not allowed to go back to chose another item we might prefer better, since portions were doled out to us in minute helpings. And not all was that tasty and some was not even hot and one item was hard to eat due to it not even being crunched worthy or being able to go down at all!
And so I just wanted to have some of the items that I did enjoy and supposedly you could not do that. The Black Forest cake wasn’t bad, but nothing like Hubby’s Grandma’s.

And so in retrospect I do believe shouting out such a comment at an Oktoberfest is not exactly what I would think would be a nice or even a good idea, but there it is I said it and no taking it back ever... Who knows if I will be banned from the place, so far no news is good news I suspect…
We left shortly after that since in my realization of that stupid comment I rode my blue chariot, my mobility scooter, right into Hubby’s ankle and that not only made him shout in pain it made me feel even more awful!
And I couldn’t get out of there fast enough… we had plans anyway, to get shot, oh not that way, our flu shots sillies!
So at this point I thought that was what I needed another physical pain for the day and so we left for Walgreen’s; no appointments necessary and got our yearly doses.
This year though, the price went up for me, Hubby is on Medicare so again his was covered completely, but mine went up seven bucks from $25 to $31.99, well there goes our six bucks we saved and then some…LOL!
What a day, and so those things might have all contributed to that nasty day for me of ending up feeling ill…who knows… even the stupid have some feelings…

The next two weekends, coming up, are the yearly Oktoberfest in Cape Coral that we have been to previously and we may go again, it actually starts tomorrow…
I hope they don’t speak to those people who ran the one at the Cultural Center that would be too embarrassing to be labeled an idiot by people who hardly know me and that in reality that all the problem really is that my filter has never ever worked on my brain.
They say confession is good for the soul in some religions, huh?
And so I do believe I will be good for a while now… and on that admission of being me allow me to be the first to wish you all a very happy good night and to ask you to kindly to count all your blessings and to share your overages and we will too!

And next time please be here or be square, ya hear?

PS and to think after over forty years of marriage and Hubby sticking up for me whenever he heard any anti-Semitic comments or jokes, by saying he was half Jewish, via his better half… that I could say that to him of all people. I feel so ashamed, but that doesn’t mean I won’t say something just as ridiculous sometime again, one never really knows with me… I think that’s what makes me fun, and unpredictable, sort of unique, hmm? Nah, but that’s all I got…or not…

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