Tonight I would talk about this great research I was doing on obesity, but no one would believe me.
Yep, I truly feel it in my bones that no one would believe what I dug up and mostly my own Hubby, who’s been skinny all of his life and doesn’t get it about anyone who has that problem of weighing too much.
He’s prejudiced; not unlike most people with the true theory that no activity and eating too much is the only cause of obesity and there for, exercising and not eating too much or much of anything is the answer!
You see, like most men, even the fat ones they think that their body is sheer perfection, gals you know what I mean? Even the really scrawny ones.
Well, since the past few years have been taking a toll on this lithe ballerina ole body of mine.
First of all for any of you who have weak stomachs please feel free to leave now before I go into to much depth of my explanation… I’ll wait, are you sure, last call?
OK, for those of you brave souls let me continue on…
How many of you out there have struggled with quitting smoking?
Personally, Hubby and I over the years have tried about six times, using the patch, cold turkey or just anything that was on the market yep even that gum, and nearly committed murder or divorce at the very least, but here we still are, aren’t we?
And we did quit a few times for anywhere around six months or more, but always went back; mine was due to my sluggish metabolism and oral fixation problem and gaining anywhere from forty to fifty pounds! Hubby never gained more than ten, but was grumpy when not doing the ghastly deed of puffs!
And you know it always took much, much longer to take it off then it did to put it on, right? What’s up with that?
I am proud to say that I have not smoked a cigarette now for over four years; to be exact, I quit back in July 11 of 2006! How about that?
It was due to the Nicotrol Inhaler, it looked like an old fashioned cigarette holder but no cigarette was in it only these cartridges you would put in that had nicotine in them, and I quit the real butts right away and never looked back, and stopped using the weaning mechanism within weeks!
Hooray! Everyone out there should be so proud of me, huh?
Hubby had no desire to quit then, but did help by smoking outside only, and then he finally bit the bullet and did quit this past February for my anniversary present, so he said whatever the reason I am just happy he finally did.
Any-who, July of 2006 was the summer I was still being tested for MS all those MRI’s and my MS neurologist said that he picked up a TIA, a transient ischemic attack, a mini stroke as well as the MS lesions. Although, since there has been some controversy over whether or not an MRI would show such a thing as TIA's.
But that was my motivation to try to quit again since both my parents had died from strokes and little did I know then that my brother who would die a few years later too from a stroke.
And so I finally had my logical reasoning.
Sadly, I had been putting weight on this time before quitting smoking for about two years.
Between our sixteen year old Yorkie dying, our one son becoming estranged from us and then to top it off with Hurricane Charley destroying our home with us in it... I truthfully became severely depressed, and went to see a psychiatrist, diagnosing myself with PTSS, Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome, he never definitely said he agreed but did write a prescription for an anti-depressive which was new on the market then, Cymbalta.
I took it for two years when I had insurance when I no longer did it was $300 dollars a month so he helped me with a program that paid for it for a while but then Hubby’s retirement pension kicked in and his SSI and we no longer qualified, but it was way too much to pay for ourselves and guess what, I didn't need it, all better!
It turns out the main reason I went to the psychiatrist was because I had gained some weight without quitting smoking and I had tried LA Weight loss and actually gained five pounds, so I thought I must be either depressed or crazy! And I told the doctor that.
So he puts me on this new medication that turns out to cause weight gain while I am still smoking but it makes you feel so good and so who cares! Now who’s crazy?
OK, got off that medication, but then I was put on another for leaking, women know what that is and that too Enablex caused a weight gain! And that problem is also from MS; leaking not weight gain, although..., one of the first symptoms by the way i.e. leaking.
Got off that couldn’t afford it due to no insurance as of four years ago this month, but still gaining weight.
Go to the doctor, regular M.D., not psycho one, now for the first time due to this weight gain I now have high blood pressure that requires medication, always had low blood pressure that was so low people used to tease me about being a dizzy blonde and all, ha?
Add in some ace inhibitors due to the weight gain and then altogether four medications that have the side affect of weight gain and then quit smoking after the TIA scare, and then within two years being told don’t walk anymore to try to loose the weight (I had lost twelve pounds!) because my hips are so bad and I have no insurance to fix them and I was making them worse since I couldn’t sleep at night from the pain and pain medicine causes me to have bleeding ulcers, and here I sit before you all with an additional weight gain of nearly what I used to weigh with no sympathy from anyone only rude disgusted stares when out in public.
So I beg all of you to try not to be too judgmental of the obese for their for the grace of illness and medication may go you…people think it's due to the mobility scooter actually the weight came way before I was told no more walking!
TA DA!
That is why I don’t go out as much as I should I am so ashamed and secretly I think Hubby is too. Although not so secretly he still doesn’t understand… do any ?
Happy night to you all and to all count those blessings and share those overages and we will too!
And next time be here or be square, OK?
Speaking My Mind is about: Tobi, who is a middle aged, no, oh all right a slightly over the hill woman with all the imperfections that go with that, and this concerns her daily life's perceptions and experiences.
Monday, October 11, 2010
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