Monday, December 7, 2009

Nearly 200 billion in the Black! It should happen to me...

We (our government) apparently found some money, President Obama said, and so now we are two hundred billion in the black, and it came from what was not used from those stimulus packages, how about that? So we’ve been told, and now it will be used to create jobs! OK, good idea.

Today is December 7th way back on this date in 1941 is when Pearl Harbor was bombed, which created the catapult to put us into the second world war after more than two thousand people were killed, sound familiar?
Studying history is for the reason of not repeating it, the actual expression goes that: “those who do not study history are doomed to repeat it.”
I prefer this one for its reasoning, since it appears to me to be more truthful:
“We learn from history that we learn nothing from history.” GEORGE BERNARD SHAW
Hubby and Mom thought that Mom had an appointment with the hearing aid place this morning at nine thirty, and so they went. But Mom once again proved her need for one, by getting the time wrong; it was actually for five thirty this evening!
The house across the street appeared to be shown today; it is on the market as being sold for a bargain price in a short sale and it is now rented. The actual homeowners are going into foreclosure for over a year now, which makes their price a fourth of the value of ours. Which isn’t that high a price even though we are on the water and only five minutes by boat to the harbor; those inner circle homes were always the cheap seats since they do not have water access, but originally only priced about a third less.
I foolishly made some more desperate calls for personal help for my cataracts and hips and shoulders. First I called one of the hospital RN’s you can ask questions about anything. My question was about the speeding up of the loss of vision in my left eye since September, for the last month my new glasses have not worked, so I suppose it is worse, and I am definitely riding nearly blind with one fair right eye.
The internet medical info could not tell me why or any reason it has seemed to speed up, while for years both eyes had been like 3’s on a scale of 1 to 10, then in September my left became an eight, and now must be a ten, ten being no vision in the eye at all, (well that’s not totally true its like looking through the fog,) real fast, huh? And so I thought I could find out why and maybe also find out how to fix it. I do know that the Solu Medrol in the 1000 mg doses I was given for three days by IV are more than likely responsible, since that was easy enough to look up, but I haven’t had anymore prednisone or steroids since then, and so why worse? Oh well.
My problem is much more ominous I tried one more Ophthalmologist and they told me that it would be eleven thousand for the regular surgery and I stopped the woman before she went onto the high test or fancier one! I laughed at her, and said something sublime like for the uninsured, and what does she think that I am made of money!
I was angry and it was the fifth one I had tried, and yes I called the state insurance program again. And the woman there nearly cried with me when she heard my story! But again I fall between the cracks too rich for real help and too poor to pay the bill, and so no insurance programs for me either! I told her to tell our governor, it's not for the pre-existing like he says it is!
That Hill Burton info that nice woman gave to me was also a dead end for me, not poor enough for them either.
And so I ate my way into comfort, I suppose it’s better than my smoking skinny days, but just as dangerous and destructive! Yep, I am officially obese, but get this even if I had insurance and could get the stomach surgery to rectify the problem having a neurological/ an autoimmune disease like MS disqualifies you!
And since eyes are 11K, hips and shoulders must be around ten times that by size, I think? Anybody got any ideas?
I know, but I want to live.
Today was a crying sad eating myself into a tizzy sort of day.
It probably doesn’t help that I am getting cabin fever; maybe I should take the scooter for a runaround the neighborhood tomorrow? I have been to the mailbox roadside with the scooter, great transport for the job, and the back yard is walker territory, but I no longer go near the dock or boat lift.
Ah, life on my own aint what it’s cracked up to be, I miss Hubby, and he says he misses me too! He will be back in three more days, yea!
Good night to all and to all count those blessings and I will too!

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