Sunday, September 13, 2009

My day started rather badly...

In an effort to try and figure out why the arcade that we went to with my cousins, I tried to find out if they had been doing any previous advertising that perhaps I hadn’t noticed, and so I Googled it by name and location. I really thought I would find some ads that I may have missed, but what I found was slightly shocking and like an act of betrayal instead, and it was in an ad. (The place was deader than a doornail for a Friday night and I thought with my advertising background I might see if his friend’s place of business could use a little help in that department.)

You see, my cousins had not been visiting us all summer here and it was their first summer being home since they retired but they had both been hospitalized this past year. Most summers they take the entire summer and drive cross country visiting friends and family along the way. But this year they were busy hanging out at the “arcade”, now they are both in their mid-sixties, and I suppose many do, do that and usually my cousins visited Las Vegas when they went on their cross country trek, but I thought that was just because of my uncle, my cousin’s dad lives there. He’s one of my mom’s brothers, she was the oldest of five and he was the middle child and the only one left at the age of 93.

And so the invite was well received by us to find out where they had been keeping themselves all summer. When they did say they would go there almost every day being there ourselves we really, on our way home from there could not find a good reason for that to hold such a fascination for them. Casually at dinner I asked my cousins if perhaps they were partial owners and I received a very vague answer, which he said they’re many partners, about a dozen.

It was a large place square footage wise. OK, I thought then left that topic alone. My cousin is seven years older than me and he doesn’t know that I am one of those lost souls that truly believes that family should not lie to one another, since we were not really friendly as kids, but this morning I found out he doesn’t believe that as well.
Simple question I thought should receive a simple answer, right? I guess not, since the news item that I found that was from last month stating that there were 13 partners, my cousin included in the 800K price tag whether that they all were equal partners it did not say. But I still think when a newspaper knows and the world basically knows, why in heavens name wouldn’t he tell me? I was flabbergasted. I know some may say that is an over the top reaction, but I will explain to you why I was… they have been listening and commiserating about my medical issues and the fact that I can’t do this surgery or that, and within a month they have spent more than 100K between the business and their new car, and so I feel like a fool.
Oh yes, they offered to help, even offered to pay off our mortgage at one point when I mentioned that when grandpa died back in 1958 my mom the eldest told her brothers to take over grandpa’s real-estate buildings which were many and enabled both of them to retire from teaching, and she said that my dad would take care of us, but my aunt who’s husband also had MS they all decided to take care of him and his family, paying off his mortgage back then and helping with his bills. I said oh no when they offered it to me, stupid me I said my mortgage was way too big for them to do that and declined. Little did I know that they too had that kind of money, and could spend significantly more than our mortgage’s total in only one month! I am such a stupid fool…my eyes will never have surgery, and I will go blind before I am old enough for Medicare, yes we still make too much for Medicaid, and at two thousand to five thousand dollars an eye, it will be more like which comes first the chicken or the egg, but in this case which comes first my meager ability to save or Medicare at... what is it 62 or 65 or 67? You try to save anything with our not being able to get health insurance due to me being pre-existing, and having to still pay off all my hospital medical bills? I am now only 59, and in just a year and a half my cataract in my left eye went from a 3 to a 7 and it won’t be long for my right they have proven that.

I reacted so significantly to the stress I decided since that tomorrow I am going to the health department for my follow-up on my A1C test the last was a 7.1, and I was told to monitor it all this time, and so I have been, well, it was up again a wee bit too high this morning, actually the worst it has ever been before breakfast and my additional three months are up now. Tomorrow I will find out if I have to add diabetes to my repertoire of ills and whether or not I will have to be on medication for that too.
I’m a medical mess; and not able to pay for a whole bunch of stuff.
I guess you could say it was just another bad day for me.
But hubby was nice enough to take me out for a bit to the downtown street craft’s fair in River City, Punta Gorda, and then we went for a short drive since my scooter was running out of juice and needed a recharge.
Bought nothing, but it did create a more peaceful afternoon for me emotionally.

Good night to all and to all take care, be safe and count those blessings and I suppose I have to start over trying to find mine.

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