How many times in life have you wanted to do whatever you wanted within reason, but had no imaging/ imagination of what to do?
I know, I know, what a problem, hehe.
Sure we are free to do whatever we want in life as long as it is legal and within your own capabilities and also in your financial realm.
Spare time, what a concept.
How I longed for it as a younger woman doing the very typical balancing act between work and family with having the oh so prevalent guilt of when with one feeling badly about not being with the other and vice versa.
And now, as I often say I have too much time on my hands, hehe, but oh so sad and true.
These days I feel guilty when I have no excuse to be this bum that too many days I do do, ha! ( Did I just say do do?) LOL.
Any-who, in my defense I am not the healthy woman that I once was either or must I admit as young as I had been; silly who is.
With chronic ailments I really should take it down a notch in that guilt thingy, but society doesn't really let even the infirm do that... be brave and try harder, no excuses! Is the brainwashing from the media.
Why there are men and women out there with the same or similar to mine "illnesses" who do it all without skipping a beat!
How dare you complain! In my head is what I hear, even though so many don't really mean to project that many feel sorry about what I have going on and some even say that.My comeback to them is "why, you didn't give it to me?"
Sincerity is out there.
And no I do not want pity, just understanding that although I have an illness that many have "heard of", those many people do not know much about it and how it has a unique property to it that there are four different types of Multiple sclerosis and each one's symptoms make it seem as if it is a different illness for each of its people it has attacked, sounds better than made a victim.
Gosh no wonder people in general are confused, and many say they have friends or family with it and a few times it has turned out to be Muscular Dystrophy or another form of an arthritis, all devastating at times to people but not Multiple sclerosis.( Let me suggest that you Google any of these at your own convenience. It's all there for your interest if you want.)
And by rights no one needs to know about something that has nothing to do with them.
But just like telling someone who lost a loved one to death, saying compassionately that you understand, you don't. See you did not lose their loved one only yours, got it.
I know, I know that sounds harsh.
In truth I do believe many would agree, best to just offer to be there for them to talk in those cases or help them with whatever they need for you to do, truly!
Hard, it sure is.
We've all been there losing loved ones and contending with chronic and fatal illness in our own families, not you?
Well, that is absolutely wonderful, seriously!
All in all this bum thing is not over done since its not in my nature no matter how awful I feel.
I must be prevalent and be of value no matter how simple my accomplishments might be in a day.
I make meals, I do laundry and so does everyone else, but for me it is important to feel useful and not so much the bum, ya know?
So in closing minimalistic behaviors daily are still something, true?
Why not give yourself a pat on the back metaphorically, since if I did it actually my shoulder would hurt too much, oh hush me, and ha!
On that note of putting things in some perspective of understanding of one's self, me, thanks for taking this ride of introspection with me, now allow me to be the very first to wish all of you a very happy good night and ask you all kindly to count all your blessings and share all your overages with you know whom and we will too!
And next time please be here or be square, ya hear!
PS Excuse "Me", WOW am I me-ing you too much tonight; forgive please. Geez the "I' s have it too! Oops, so sorry too!
I know, I know, what a problem, hehe.
Sure we are free to do whatever we want in life as long as it is legal and within your own capabilities and also in your financial realm.
Spare time, what a concept.
How I longed for it as a younger woman doing the very typical balancing act between work and family with having the oh so prevalent guilt of when with one feeling badly about not being with the other and vice versa.
And now, as I often say I have too much time on my hands, hehe, but oh so sad and true.
These days I feel guilty when I have no excuse to be this bum that too many days I do do, ha! ( Did I just say do do?) LOL.
Any-who, in my defense I am not the healthy woman that I once was either or must I admit as young as I had been; silly who is.
With chronic ailments I really should take it down a notch in that guilt thingy, but society doesn't really let even the infirm do that... be brave and try harder, no excuses! Is the brainwashing from the media.
Why there are men and women out there with the same or similar to mine "illnesses" who do it all without skipping a beat!
How dare you complain! In my head is what I hear, even though so many don't really mean to project that many feel sorry about what I have going on and some even say that.My comeback to them is "why, you didn't give it to me?"
Sincerity is out there.
And no I do not want pity, just understanding that although I have an illness that many have "heard of", those many people do not know much about it and how it has a unique property to it that there are four different types of Multiple sclerosis and each one's symptoms make it seem as if it is a different illness for each of its people it has attacked, sounds better than made a victim.
Gosh no wonder people in general are confused, and many say they have friends or family with it and a few times it has turned out to be Muscular Dystrophy or another form of an arthritis, all devastating at times to people but not Multiple sclerosis.( Let me suggest that you Google any of these at your own convenience. It's all there for your interest if you want.)
And by rights no one needs to know about something that has nothing to do with them.
But just like telling someone who lost a loved one to death, saying compassionately that you understand, you don't. See you did not lose their loved one only yours, got it.
I know, I know that sounds harsh.
In truth I do believe many would agree, best to just offer to be there for them to talk in those cases or help them with whatever they need for you to do, truly!
Hard, it sure is.
We've all been there losing loved ones and contending with chronic and fatal illness in our own families, not you?
Well, that is absolutely wonderful, seriously!
All in all this bum thing is not over done since its not in my nature no matter how awful I feel.
I must be prevalent and be of value no matter how simple my accomplishments might be in a day.
I make meals, I do laundry and so does everyone else, but for me it is important to feel useful and not so much the bum, ya know?
So in closing minimalistic behaviors daily are still something, true?
Why not give yourself a pat on the back metaphorically, since if I did it actually my shoulder would hurt too much, oh hush me, and ha!
On that note of putting things in some perspective of understanding of one's self, me, thanks for taking this ride of introspection with me, now allow me to be the very first to wish all of you a very happy good night and ask you all kindly to count all your blessings and share all your overages with you know whom and we will too!
And next time please be here or be square, ya hear!
PS Excuse "Me", WOW am I me-ing you too much tonight; forgive please. Geez the "I' s have it too! Oops, so sorry too!