We all make excuses at times
for how we behave.
Now don’t lie; I am more than
sure that you have too…at least once, maybe?
Legitimate reasoning is only
something people with major medical issues can genuinely use for their excuse
on why they literally did that; or can we all?
Lack of self control is no
reason to behave badly; or is it?
Sure we have all said that a
child with a behavior problem can be legitimately labeled, Autistic or ADD or
ADHD etc, and than we all agree that is a legitimate excuse for being not
always in the best of spirits, correct?
Of course it is, therapists
do try to help these children and success proves that they can be helped in
many cases, but not all…
Than why is it not alright or
as easily understandable for someone with Fibro fog, caused by Fibromyalgia, or
a similar foggy brain syndrome with Multiple Sclerosis and more importantly,
cognitive disorders that is even more provable by MRI lesions and other
neurological substantial diagnosis to be understood that what we may do or say
is NOT always what we meant, and why is this is not always understood is baffling to me?
You see, I am included in that, since I
have both MS and Fibro, and by some standards of how these things progress I
should be a blathering idiot by now, perhaps to some I already am, bud, dump bum, since I have had both for way too long!
Truly I do believe that mine though
has manifested itself in, at times, as very bad, angry behavior and appears as my
demeanor. Interestingly, that mean
is within the word demeanor, hmm?
In a negative way to act that no one
should be proud of, but it appears to be triggered by frustration plus exhaustion
and there is no way to alleviate it while it goes on, since it is a brain
issue, a short circuit with the striped myelin on the nerves in the brain, a
coating, that protects usually, but this is like striped electrical wires, ya
know?
Not my fault! TRULY!
And as any school age child
knows is that the brain has many of these nerve fibers within its dome-don,
called the brain, actually throughout the central nervous system; true?
So when several are not
functioning, due to their striptease, so to speak… you have no idea what may
transcend; oh yes we do with the problem, it’s a medical legit issue, but many
don’t get it, which can create havoc with relationships…including family and
even friends not on Facebook (too much time to think with what to say to most of them, but sadly not for me) and
if it affects you, as mine has, with basically a nasty personality change; not
good!
People don’t get it… which
frustrates us all that much more and so I have basically no friendships left in
the real world and except for our one son that is all the family I speak with
regularly as well as Hubby of course!
I do try not to blame the
diseases, which really have caused this.
The problem is that no one
wants to hear that…probably why...
So I live in a vicious cycle
that contains Hubby along with Number One Son and me only for communication
face to face or via phone.
The idea of this topic came
to me while once again I misunderstood another persons meaning of what they
said to me, yep cognitive problems too, and so when people tell you something and it
aggravates you with MS, unless you totally get the gist of what they are trying to
express it can be difficult…and this is can be scary…AND SO MY EXCUSE IS LEGIT AND ALL ANY
OF US WANT IS TO BE UNDERSTOOD AND MAYBE FORGIVEN A WEE BIT?
On that note of really, allow
me to be the very first to wish all of you a very happy good night and ask you
to kindly count all your blessings and share those overages with you know who
and we will too!
And next time please be here
or be square, ya hear!