The need to come clean, fess up; tell it as it is, being
honest… is one thing that is in my character makeup.
Today I sat out, not literally, since the sitting thingy is
why I sat it out…no can do for too long, any-who, I did NOT go to the gym/rehab
for my exercise program today.
It was like this… if I did try to sit in the wheelchair I
would have been definitely uncomfortable and in a lot of pain and so lying down
was the position of the day.
I must admit that I am a wee bit better than I was, but
every time I try a move, like a zig or a zag in either direction I have the
cringe factor of toothache pain or sharpness as if a two by four is smashing
against my lower back, with that awful sensation on my lower extremities, moving
has been difficult, and certain motions starts it all once again, and today it
wasn’t just emanating from my lower back and right leg, oh no, it was from my waste
down on both sides, even to my toes, mostly on the right sided toes. Some may
think a slipped or herniated disc, which in my case is possible since I do have
Spondylosis too, but it comes and goes and I don’t think that would.
Guilt plays a big part in my explaining myself, like a kid,
doing something wrong, ya know?
Of course I know that I did nothing wrong, but I so want to
do the exercise program and I will Wednesday and Friday on my other two days of
the week that is if I am all better with this particular issue… Even my neuro
said I should take a week off if I have this situation and to always protect my
neck and back, rather vague instructions when you are pushing and pulling on
equipment, hmm?
And of course my other reason for feeling guilty is because I
promised to not go here again, but heck this is my daily life!
My limit has been reached, sadly, again for this upright
positioning and so I will have to close for tonight and get back into my comfy
position and I just want to thank you all for being there/here…
On that TMI once again, allow me to be the very first to
wish all of you a very happy good night and ask you to kindly count all your
blessings and share all those overages with you know who and we will too!
And next time please be here or be square, ya hear!
PS The rain is here for the next few days, many inches are
predicted to be added to the already many we have had and roads are flooding, but not right
here. I hope that our near neighbors don’t have too much damage!