Sadly, my motivation for helping others was to make me feel good about helping them, got that?
To me it was purely selfish for what it did for me far surpassed what I think it did for others.
Now I see that others are doing it too, but I am not so sure it is helping them as my reasoning helped me, does that make any sense?
Some that I see doing the ‘good deed’ thing I cannot see where there is any self resolve, oh maybe just using a site for a sounding board… to me they seem way more altruistic than I.
What is the true meaning of altruism?
Yes, I see that it means being unselfish, self sacrificing, having humanity, selflessness, and being philanthropic, OMG I was being altruistic! Yea!
I gave whole heartedly without expecting anything in return, except the warm feeling in my heart (not GERD, at that time) and perhaps a thank you, oops that is something isn’t it, shame on me.
I taught for free, and did fund raising for free and advocacy for free, was a board member for free; everything that any other volunteer does, and why do I wonder… why some people to me seemed more generous?
Now that I can no longer do what I once did, I truly wonder if I did enough.
How do we know; if we did the right amount to help make a difference?
So many ills are still not cured.
What is the measure of a person in the bigger scheme of things?
Every single horrible ill out there makes you want to chase their affects away with a magic wand, but as human beings we really only have the power to do what we can the best that we can.
It is still heart breaking to not to be able to cure the world’s ills in one foul swoop!
Our suffering as creatures is only as strong as what our own stamina’s allow.
Amazingling many are so much stronger than I, but perhaps some are not?
So is it up to the strong to pull up the not as strong? ‘Weaker’, somehow sounded way wrong.
That would be a nice way to think; although, many who are just that capable are too busy trying to help themselves to think about others.
But some who have much to deal with continue to try to help others and to me that is just incredible and so commendable, not that the others are not. We all do what we can when we can.
To tell you who these saints are, I would have to be here all night long, but many, an overwhelming amount of these angels do exist, thankfully for the sake of the rest of us!
Some are even within our Facebook pages, just look around and you will see the goodness spewing out into their requests to help their causes.
Decency is still quite in Vogue.
In closing today on a site started by one of these angels that I mentioned Kit Minden’s site, Living for a cure, for MS but for many other neurological ills or even chronic ailments that do not meet neurological criteria’s, but are just as horrid all the same.
She too has Multiple Sclerosis but incorporates natural with conventional methods to deal with her own daily challenges and shares that knowledge with all of us others.
As well as putting questions out to the populace who utilize her site to openly discuss their feelings about their ills that very well may have suitable feedback from others who too can relate. So simple, but also so functional with a true need for this sort of open forum in an area where so many with similar situations can get instant information or debate ideas or just exchange them. It’s a good thing!
Sorry for that Martha Stewart reference but she too could use someone in her corner once again. I wouldn’t wish her problems on my worst enemy!
Any-who, my insecurities are real and depression comes and goes, ya know something,
I am very lucky that I can bounce my feelings off of all of you and that is a VERY GOOD THING! Thanks for being there.
On that note of huh, allow me to be the very first to wish all of you a very happy good night and ask you to kindly count all your blessings and we will too!
And next time please be here or be square, ya hear?!
PS WOW! The Market, i.e. Stock Market is remarkable, hey maybe that’s where that expression came from; reMARKETable? And as oil barrel prices go down as they are so does gas prices, is this a great world or what?